CazGirl

!!!! Of course I'm going to Paul O'Grady! What on Earth gave you that idea?

'sup Boss? ....

*shrugs* But it was defininitely yours lol! And the avatar had changed to a picture of Mika (one we've never seen before) and we were all like "OOOOH WE ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE NOW!!"

It was very random.

ah okay, I hear Japan's rules are a bit strict

I'm looking for work, rehearsing for a dance show and...that's about it at the moment! I don't go to college anymore. Anata wa?

ah so the flag's a good idea then! whoopie!! I absolutely can't wait for this!

ALL Mika Fan Art Part II in the chat about mika section I believe

Arigatou gozaima****a for the lovely video you did for me!!

Arigatou gozaimashi-ta for the lovely video you did for me!!

As far as I know it is I'm not sure...

at the moment, non-existent I've been stressing over getting a job and shizz so I haven't spent a lot of time here. Oops. I haven't missed the deadline have I?

Aww thank you so much! That's very sweet of you

aww thank you very much! You too! x

Aww thank you, it's lovely of you to say so. But it's true, sometimes people look down on others because of their outrageous or pitiful behaviour but some people fail to realise that these people who drink or do drugs are victims, and not just to the substance that's slowly killing them. Understanding is something that lacks in this world, and people fail to see another person's perspective. There's always another side to a story, you know?

Anyway...thanks again

Aww thanks, that's really sweet.

=]

aww this will be the 3rd time we meet :-DDD ^___^

aww! Thankyou! Merry Christmas back atcha!

x x x x

awww, thank you so much!

Basically, for about a year and a half this guy was so in love with me, and he was so sweet. He even sent me flowers to my home on Valentine's Day, but I was still healing from a previous heartbreak (I was over the guy, just wouldn't allow myself to love another) so I did nothing about it. I didn't allow myself to feel feelings.

Then he started to move on and I knew I was losing someone who could be good to me. So, I took the plunge and told him how I felt. He was dating a girl at the time but he never fancied her...so he ended that (I NEVER forced him) and we ended up seeing eachother for about 2 months...

The first month was terrific. He was my first kiss, he was my first with everything we did. I was so happy...

But then dents started to appear and I didn't know why...

To put an uber long story short, he said he didn't fancy me anymore (Though I had to really get it out of him). So we ended it...and I was distraught. I had never been so happy in my life, he was always such a gentleman...this man who had proclaimed love for me pretty much right from the start....no longer had those feelings for me.

Whenever we talked, our conversations were so short lived. It was like he wasn't interested in me as a person anymore, let alone as a partner...no matter how much I was hurting I still wanted to be friends, but I never got that vibe from him. He always apologised for all the pain he'd caused me but at the same time there was no real show of it...

Then I find out that he wanted to get back with HER, the girl he never fancied. I mean, how bizarre?!?!? For about 2 weeks I felt so sick all the time. I could barely eat, even though I knew I had to. I just felt like I was gagging all the time, and I was so angry...

So angry in fact, I wrote a blog on MySpace about how I was feeling, how I was being treated, exactly what I thought of him at the time...

But it ruined everything. My reckless behaviour ruined everything I ever had with him...

before all this relationship malarkey we had a beautiful friendship...now it's all gone. I tried so hard to understand his feelings but I felt like he wasn't trying to understand mine. Now all of a sudden I feel like I'm the one to blame even though I'm not...

He still thinks I'm an Angel, he still thinks I'm Aphrodite but he's not ready to talk to me yet after all the things I said...I left it a week for the air to clear, but yesterday I sent him a text saying "hey, how are you? x" to keep it low key but got no response.

Early this morning (1am?) I look on his MySpace and he's changed his status to "In A Relationship..."

I thought I was passed the crying stage, but it's come back.

I can't believe everything that's happened and I'm just left in shock...nothing seems to make sense.

Because they're really strict, pay sucks, hours can kinda suck, cleaning the screen can really suck, customers can suck...xD

BOO YOU - That's a Saturday! And I work Saturdays! Eh pfft...come to Southend and pop into the Odeon Thanks for the invite though. I'll see if I can book the evening off or something.

By the way - what's the occassion? How come you'll be in the UK? This is very exciting stuffles!