babyblue

Thanks, I won't forget you guys, even if I am closing this chapter in my life. Maybe I'll pop in for time to time, to see how the stories going. Anyways, goodbye *waves*

Mum and I were locked in a hug, both crying. "I don't know what I'm going to do Baby, he was my son, in every way that counts," she sobbed. "I don't know what I'm going to do either. I guess we just have to go on with life," I said. "I know, but its hard. I don't know what I would do if I lost you too," she murmured, stroking my hair. "Lets hope that doesn't happen," I said, as she smiled softly. "Thanks, for making them bring him back here to be buried," she whispered. "Its what he would have wanted. Australia was his home," "Look, I have to go talk to the others. They need my help now," I murmured, as she let me go. I headed into the loungeroom, as Calvin came out. "How you holding up?" he asked, his voice touched with concern. "How do you think I'm holding up Cal?" I snapped. "My brother died, and I don't need you asking that every 10 minutes." He sighed, and pulled me into his arms. "Lets go outside, you don't need to go in there just yet," he soothed, as I sighed. He was so concerned for me. Sobbing quietly, I let him lead me to the balcony. "I just can't believe his gone," I whispered, as he nodded. "Neither can I, but you're still alive. I don't know what would happen if I lost you," he murmured, his arms around my waist as I stared across the yard, unseeingly. I didn't see the man hiding in the bushes, didn't hear the shot of the gun, or Cal's anguished cry as he tried to shove me out of the way. I didn't even feel the bullet entering my body, and piercing my lung. "Cal? Whats ha..ppening?" I gasped, as he let out a shout, laying me down on the deck. "Babe, you were shot, but its okay, I'll get Lolly, she'll fix this," he said. Gasping, I grasped his hand. "Don't leave me, please... don't... leave me," I pleaded, feeling nothing as blood slowly flowed out of me. "I won't leave Babe, just don't die. You can't do this to me, don't die," he pleaded, as he sent out a mental plea. *Help, someone help* he cried, in his mind, as Kelzy suddenly sat bolt upright. "OH god, somethings wrong," she cried, as they all looked at her, then headed outside. They were just in time to hear me say. "You ... have to... rejoin... them. They need... you," I gasped, my breath coming in short gasps. "No Babe, I can't, not without you," he said, staring into my eyes as tears fell out of his own. As he turned at the sound of the others, I noticed the hand on his shoulder was fading. "Lolly, you have to help her," he cried, as I tugged on his hand. "Its.... too...late. The ...hand,.... almost.... gone," I gasped. "No!! It's not too late, you'll survive," he cried. "Let...me go Cal.... You're strong," "Not without you. You've been my strength for so long Babe, I don't know what I'll do without you," "Love... again. Don't forget me..... but... open.... you're.... heart.... if .... someone new.... comes along," I said, as Lolly, who had gone upstairs to check on Artsy, finally arrived, and pushed through the group gathering. "Babe, don't go," Cal cried, as Lolly laid her hands on me. But it was too late, I had breathed my last, telling Cal to move on. As I floated towards the light, I took one last look at my group. Tears were in their eyes, Artsy stood towards the back, disbelieving, as the others shook their heads. Kelzy had leaned against Soa, and both were crying, M4l was wrapped in Finns arms, everyone was upset. They had only got me back. And my mother, my poor mother, she had just come out the door, and was sobbing uncontrollably, pushing her way through and throwing herself beside me. She had lost both her children, in such a short span of time. I tore my eyes away from them, as I felt someone touch my arm. "They'll be okay Babe, they always are," Kevin whispered, as he held out his hand and, together, we headed to the light.

Hey everyone, long time no chat, and it will be even longer after this. I don't have the time to be online anymore, real life is calling. I was actually doing the cowardly thing, and avoiding this place rather than saying goodbye, but I thought I should at least say bye. So here it is. I'm going to do one post now, and then leave you to it. I'll always remember the fun I had posting in this story, I just don't have a spot in my life for it anymore. Hope you all have great lives. So I'm going to post now, and then I'll have to get going (Got a date with Ryan in 2 hours, and have to get ready)

Meanwhile Calvin and I had ended up splitting our time between the uk (and scotland in particular) and Australia, working on his album. We both missed the group antics and everyone, though we saw Artsy and Kevin when they came to Australia, and Kelzy had popped around a few times. Soa had just released a new book, and invited us all to the launch the night before the tickets came. We'd arrived back at the small apartment/flat we had brought when it became to difficult to stay at my mother's to find a letter waiting from us. "Whose it from Babe?" Calvin asked, as he unlocked the door, and let us in. "Mika," I said, examing the envelope as he looked confused. "Really? Thats a long time no hear case. Open it up then," he prompted as I continued to stare at it until he finally snatched it out of my hand. A few seconds later it had been read, and passed to me, as Calvin examined the tickets. "Can we make it?" I asked, as he looked at the date on the tickets. "If we fly straight from glasgow on leaving the hotel that morning, and be at the airport by at least midnight to fly for paris we should be able to swing it," he said, as I nodded gladly. "It doesn't leave much room for chat though Babe, apart from before the concert. If you wanted to you could stay the night in London (it was London yeah?) and meet me in Paris afterwards" he said, as I glanced up at him, and then reached out and hugged him. "No, its fine. We don't even know what will happen at the concert, and maybe its best not to spend too much time remincising. It'll just want us to start things over again, and right now we have your tour to worry about," I said, leaning my head against his chest, as he hugged me tight. "I'll rsvp then," he murmured a few seconds later, as he picked up the phone, and I set about finding something for lunch

Actually, he looks like someone I know, Mike. Half Lebanese, attracts the ladies (and guys) Sound anything like him?

Caz I know you meant no offence by it (but maybe a smilie would have helped) Its just that, out of Belgian Mika and NZ Mika I think NZ Mika is being the lesser Diva

I seriously think it will just become Mika penniman.... no big deal at all

I find that last sentence completly stereotypical (yes being a dra queen prob means his a diva but...) and am going to point out that NZ Mika has, from the article, already discussed this with Mika's people over a period of time. As this is only just comin to light, I don't see him as 'raving' so to speak about how someone stole his name. He just seems concerned that he still be able to use the name. (no offence)

I don't care if I don't get questions, and thats not will make me not want to do another one. I just think, after this attempt that that will be enough. (and I will get questions )

I can honestly say, that if I didn't get questions I wouldn't be willing to risk a second round. I know thats not your fault that I got skipped, but all things considered Thursday is going to be my last try, questions or no questions. So, just put me down for it please

I'd be willing to have another try on thursday (the 8th), however due to the times I can be on, (and knowing you only get a decent amount of questions if you're here to answer them) can I request that you make the thread before you go to bed on the wednesday. (and maybe suggest you do similar for other Aussies.) You can leave the other hot seats running of course, so that they get their fair 24 hours. Due to time constraints even with the fair 24 hours, I would only have had maybe 1-2, maybe 3 hours tops today, and most of that is at a time when nobody is on. Sorry to be a bother about it.

I think the hotseat should have an ETA(or approximate starting time in a time zone) in the front page, so that those of us in different time zones are aware that the day they signed up for is the actually not the day they'll get. I was free on the 2nd, and I was free on the 4th but I should be spending very little time online on the 5th (today) because I need to study. I feel that knowing the time in your time zone in which you start the threads (and I am aware things can come up) would be helpful for not only me, but for others in similar situations

I'll go for tomorrow...get it over and done with And its alright, I forget until this morning when I checked when I was on.... Anyways, tomorrow is good

I might be doing things towards the end of november(road trips etc) and am being dragged off to bed now. I was thinking, maybe sharing a day earlier on if possible, maybe tomorrow, or one after thursday if its not too much trouble.

Hmm... I noticed I was supposed to be in the hot seat yesterday, but couldn't find a thread. Maybe I missed it or something (I was online), but I was wondering if I could have another day