I totally understand you there....I find that I don't want to mention to certain people how much I like Mika, not because I'm ashamed (I'm definitely not, I'm PROUD to be a Mika fan), but because I don't want them to suddenly love him too. I dunno, I guess I just want liking Mika to by "my thing" not theirs. Although it is difficult to keep my love for Mika a secret, cause I could really talk about him all day
And about feeling like a bad fan, I get what ya mean there too cause of course I want him to be successful which means more fans to share him with