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Aaron Hotchner from Criminal Minds

Matthew Gray Gubler's Videos on his website.

http://www.matthewgraygubler.com

Russian Roulette - Rihanna

what also comforts me is

Chicken Pad Thai

Vanilla Latte from Starbucks

She Hates Me - Puddle of Mudd

What comforts me most is Music, without i'd surely die...i almost go crazy if the battery on my ipod is on half....i have to listen to Music!! it makes me feel safe.

Well...I don't wanna explain why... sorry:blush-anim-cl:...will just say that i feel lonier and more left/left out than usual...im not sure if what i think is true but im 99.9% sure and I SHOULD be happy about it but im not...

Alright, but whatever it is...just know there are other people around you besides the real people....more like virtual people....kinda like fairies or like Santa Claus who wish too see you happy or just not too upset.

I felt amazing...till I realized something....now i just wanna hide and cry...probs will do soon....

May i know why?

Soup

Haters

i feel good, they're actually people out there who care.

Thank you for the advice thus far, now i can think in a direction.

Maybe i am jealous, im not sure...they dont have to deal with what i have to deal with...when i try balancing, my focus shifts. I cant find anything in common with them anymore, maybe cuz i havent spent much time with them. I want to feel good about myself without hearing any "but"s. Its just too much hard work for me to stay there, stay at feeling good.

i sometimes fear doing what i feel like doing, i feel that if i do want i feel is right, im gonna end up pushing others away and i'll be left with no one. i hate that part of myself.

So i have friends who have been a big help to me, we hang out sometimes, they've taken me to concerts, they have taken me to dinner and well they've listened to me. Even though they've done all that for me, they always criticized my life...the way i live it. I take care of my siblings, do chores and help out my family when they need it. That keeps me busy now that i dont go to school anymore. They think it isnt fair, i should be out late or hanging out with them all the time, when they feel like i should be with them. My little brother was born with hydrocephalus which means water in the head. So he's a little disabled, he's a little behind for his age and he cant walk yet. I spend most of my time taking care of him and my friends think i should take some time off. They're always saying that i should get out, that my mom is being unfair by making me take care of my siblings while she's working and while my dad is working too. They've criticized every choice i've made and i dont do that to them. I wonder sometimes if all the things they've done for me is really worth putting up with their criticism.

What do you guys think?

Halo / Walking On Sunshine (Glee Cast Version) - Glee Cast

tired and in need of a sweet tea.

I read that. It wasn't a fair article at all.

I think the person who wrote it was in a bad mood and couldnt find anyone else to make fun of. the sad life of a mean writer sometimes.

i dont like when friends feel the need to criticized your life when they arent any better than you. When they feel they have a say in what you do with your life and put you down sometimes for doing the opposite. grrrrrr!

His music is beautiful, i prefer listening to him in Italian even if i dont understand some of what he's saying, but his voice sounds so passionate. The spanish versions of his songs are good too, but sometimes meanings are lost in translation. Overall he's a great singer!

i Love Glee!!!! that show is awesome!!! all the songs, the characters and the drama....just perfect for me on a wednesday night.

Beautiful Girls - Bayside

I feel sore, maybe its from the bike ride or maybe its cuz im getting old.

i've always thought about having kids, but i want to get all my stuff out of the way first and then settle down. I dont think i'd be able to do everything with kids and a husband to tend to. Not that having kids is something bad, but i want to study and travel. Then maybe settle down and be with the kids all the time, a stay at home mom.

i'd like to have a career that i actually would enjoy and would make others happy as well. I'd like to someday find someone whom to share my life with. I'd like to travel outside of the US besides going to Mexico.