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  1. More than three years! He's finally coming back!

     

    :woot_jump::woot_jump::woot_jump:

     

    Aaaaand he's not playing Seattle.

     

    And I am completely broke.

     

    And he's playing my dream gig.

     

    And I can't go.

     

    Let me see. How can I express this?

     

    :tears: :tears: :tears:

     

    Still, I am thrilled beyond words that he is finally coming back and the rest of his U.S. fans will be able to party like we haven't partied since the last time he was here. It's about time. So,

    :woot_jump::woot_jump::woot_jump:

  2. My initial reaction was alienation. I had nothing to relate to emotionally because I'm not in that place and cannot remember ever being there. I probably was, but I'm old now :naughty:

     

    I gave it a second listen and totally got it musically. I still can't relate, but I enjoy it so much musically because it reminds me of the music I listened to when I was young, but sounds completely fresh.

     

    I was really hoping somebody would do something like this, but I never expected it to be Mika. Should have known it would be. He keeps fulfilling my musical fantasies.

     

    I really wasn't looking forward to the album because I have no use for love songs, but if it's going to be this musically engaging all the way through, I really cannot wait to hear it.

     

    Keeping my excitement low-key because I don't know how long I will have to wait, but definitely getting excited. He surprised me again:punk:

  3. Always happy to hear about another Mika project. It is awesome to come back into the forums after a nice long break and see that the man is working hard and getting paid for his skills and creativity.

     

    I was afraid he was out there just eating good food in various countries and living like he was on permanent vacation. Glad to know the album is taking so long because he's keeping his studio bills paid and making sure he can afford to tour.

     

    I would have been disappointed if I had logged on and found out there wasn't any Mika news. Always happy to come on and see good news.

     

    Just imagine if we were fans of some guy who was out fighting paternity suits, fighting in bars, and abusing his partners! It's awesome that our news is always good news :thumb_yello:

     

    I am looking forward to the new album even more now :wub2:

  4.  

    There it is in American Sign Language.

     

    The guy doing the sign language has made a ton of amazing videos for really good (and some awful) songs. I've had a huge internet crush on him for months.

     

    I like the song too :biggrin2:

  5. My brother has a developmental delay (the mind of a child in a grown up). I have been taking care of him for most of my life because my parents were seldom home to take care of us.

     

    When I was a teenager, I faced much of the same criticism you are facing now.

     

    I think that people are genuinely well-meaning. I think that they are hoping that the criticism will help you make better choices. The problem is that most people tend to have no clue what they are talking about when they make criticism and give advice.

     

    You are the one who knows your situation the best. You are the one who knows how you feel and how much you can give and how much you can take. Make the best decisions you know how to make and learn from the results.

     

    When I make decisions, I strive to take care of myself first. Criticism from others doesn't help me do that. First, I explain to people that I value their friendship and that hanging out with them helps me by giving me the freedom to have fun. However, when they criticize me, it tears me down and robs me energy I need for doing the things I need to do.

     

    The people who are worth being friends with understand and focus on building me up with positive attention and respect for my choices. They still express concern when they see me draining myself dry and offer to take me out for refreshment or offer some other useful form of help.

     

    The people who are not worth being friends with, continue to criticize me, so I stop talking to them. Most of them, don't even notice. Some of them criticize me for not talking to them. Those are the ones I ignore the most. If someone shows an understanding for how their criticism tore me down and an interest in not criticizing me anymore, I give them another chance, if I have known them to trustworthy in other ways. Most of them really don't notice I stopped hanging out with them.

     

    The friends I have now, continually amaze me with their love and support. When they do express concern for me, they do so in a way that builds me up instead of tearing me down. When I talk to them about a problem, I feel better equipped to deal with that problem instead of feeling like their criticism is one more problem I have to deal with.

     

    Here's a secret I learned from my friends. Most of my friends knew about me before I knew them. None of them talked to me because they hated the people I was hanging out with (for good reason, those people were jerks.) Because I was willing to be alone, if necessary, and removed all of the jerks from my life, the people who are my friends now felt safe to talk to me because they knew they wouldn't be exposing themselves to the jerks I had been hanging out with before.

     

    Don't be afraid to tell jerks to leave you alone. You never know who you will meet. (That's a general bit of advice that may or may not apply to your situation.)

     

    Refuse to settle for relationships that tear you down and seek out relationships that build you up. It's worth it. :wub2:

  6. Pick your Artist:

    Bif Naked

     

    Describe yourself:

    Succulent

     

    How do you feel:

    Tango Shoes

     

    If you could go anywhere, where would you go:

    Funeral of a Good Grrl

     

    Your best friend is:

    Only the Girl

     

    You and your best friends are:

    Never Alone

     

    If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:

    Choking on the Truth

     

    What is life to you:

    Everything

     

    Your current relationship:

    Ciao, Bella

     

    Your fear:

    Abandonment

     

    What is the best advice you have to give:

    Hold On

     

    I would like to die...:

    Welcome to the End

     

    Time of day:

    The World is Over

     

    My motto:

    I Love Myself Today

     

    And just because I'm feeling contrary and really wanted to do it this way:

     

    Pick your Artist:

    Mika

     

    Describe yourself:

    The Only Lonely One

     

    How do you feel:

    Touches You

     

    If you could go anywhere, where would you go:

    Dr. John

     

    Your best friend is:

    Stuck In The Middle

     

    You and your best friends are:

    We Are Golden

     

    If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:

    Good Gone Girl

     

    What is life to you:

    One Foot Boy

     

    Your current relationship:

    I See You

     

    Your fear:

    Lollipop

     

    What is the best advice you have to give:

    Love Today

     

    I would like to die...:

    Any Other World

     

    Time of day:

    Rain

     

    My motto:

    Relax, Take It Easy

  7. I'm pretty sure it's nothing terminal .. can be chronic but you can live the rest of your life with it so .. It'll only be if I'll be in a lot of pain for the rest of my life or not :boxed: Something like that ..

     

    :huglove:

     

    I hope it's the non-chronic kind.

     

    Several of my friends have fibromyalgia, which is one of those chronic pain diseases. If it helps at all, they lead very interesting lives and have lots of adventure between flare ups.

     

    You're in my thoughts :huglove:

     

    RIVERS! YOU'RE ON BLOGSPOT!!! ME TOO!!! I'm totally following you.

     

    EEEEEK!!

    That's the sound of me running away and hiding :naughty:

     

    Seriously though, I am so excited to have a follower, especially since it's someone I'm so fond of :wub2:

  8. Hmm .. difficult ..

     

    Surely one of the worst years, maybe even the worst...

     

    Basically because of 1 thing: my dad died of cancer 2 weeks ago .. We had the diagnosis since March .. 7 months ...

     

    :huglove: :huglove: :huglove:

     

    1997 was that kind of year for me. My dad didn't die of cancer, but he spent his last few months in a hospital bed because of his heart.

     

    I hope that your illness is nothing terminal and that your heart heals as quickly as it is able :huglove:

  9. I celebrate my New Year on my birthday, which is only a few days from now, so this poll is perfectly timed for me.

     

    I remember that I've had some monumentally rough patches this year, but I can't really remember what they are because it has truly been my best year yet.

     

    I spent a weekend on the Queen Mary with my friends.

    I had amazing fun and epic tears and learned my friends love me even when I'm a mess.

    I learned to fight with my friends.

    I've always been too nice to fight with anybody, so it was important and important step in learning to speak my mind openly.

    I filmed myself dancing in my pants and put it on the internet.

    I met Mika (who turned out to be somebody I would totally want to be friends with if circumstances allowed such things.)

    I wrote a small book.

    I've updated my blog more regularly than last year.

    I am about to visit my oldest and dearest friend, who I have not seen for just over ten years.

    In fact, I'm leaving in 2.5 hours :wub2:

     

    This is the year that I finally feel like I've come into my own as a person. I'm not afraid of life or pain or other people. I'm not surrounded by people who hurt me. I am surrounded by people who love me. I'm not surprised they love me because I think I'm awesome. I have the kind of confidence I always wished I had. I'm comfortable in my own skin.

     

    I made all of that stuff happen. I made hard choices and opened myself up to things I used to fear. I took risks and was met with amazing love each time I did. My friends have loved me when others in the past would have ripped me to shreds. I have loved myself when I had the most reason to beat myself down.

     

    I am truly and deeply happy for the first time in my life.

     

    Did I mention I met Mika? :wub2:

  10. In the states, we call it Veteran's Day, but it's still intended to be a day of remembering the sacrifices people made.

     

    Both of my parents were veterans of the conflict in Vietnam. Neither of them died there, but my dad left his life there.

     

    He got a medical discharge because of a knee that needed to be fused, but it was his mind that was broken. He loved his life on the ship. He had a purpose and a place in the world. He could never find that in civilian life and moved us around every six to nine months in his search for it.

     

    He suffered post traumatic stress disorder and self-medicated with his gambling addiction. We were homeless a few times because of it. We often went without food and had to wear our clothes until we outgrew them to the point that we split the seams, which always happened when I was at school.

     

    Once in awhile, he would come back to himself and I would get to find out who he could have been if he hadn't been broken by the war. That's the person I am most like. He had a goofy sense of humor and a sharp mind. He loved people more than he knew how to express and was generous to a fault. Like my dad, I have post traumatic stress disorder. Unlike my dad, I have been able to find healthy ways to cope with it and am finding places in the world where I have purpose. I carry the best of him with me.

     

    I saw him leave the world on November 5, 1997. We were in the middle of an argument and he just stopped. He stopped speaking and stopped being in his body. He left mid-sentence.

     

    In the states, the iconic image of self-sacrifice is rows of headstones in a graveyard. When I think about self-sacrifice, I think of the people who are damaged and discarded before they die, the ones who lead ghost lives of pain and fear until their bodies finally give up holding them here.

     

    My dad was never completely alone. No matter where we lived, there were always other broken veterans for him to talk to. Often, they were homeless. The help that was available to them was worse than their pain. Often their brokeness went too deep to be fixed with a shower, a meal, and a warm bed. That never stopped my dad from trying to help them. There were very few times in my life that our house was not a home for a homeless veteran.

     

    I am still dirt poor, but I still give money to homeless people if I have cash on me because I know that their stories are never as simple as people think. I know that the act of kindness means more than whatever the money gets used for. I say a prayer for them and move on because it's all I can do right now. When I can do more by supporting programs to help people, I do whatever I can to support those programs.

     

    I remember the veterans who died and mourn the losses suffered by their families. I do what I can to honor the veterans who lived because their losses are no less significant.

     

    My mom is still carrying her scars from the war, though she was never in combat, it cost her everything too. I hope that she stops being busy long enough for me to spend some time with her today.

  11. Ummmmmmmmmmm ... I don't think you need them now - you can download it from the site .... as long as they know you had an account and was active .... or maybe I shouldn't tell you that ... I didn't use my disks to load up the game on this new laptop .... it's quicker too as it does all the patches at the same time :wink2:

     

    I really shouldn't tell you that should I :lmfao:

     

    While you were posting that, I was busy trying to log in and discovered that I cannot remember my old username or my password :biggrin2:

     

    Saved by my goldling brain :biggrin2:

     

    (miss my gnomes)

  12. i'm so jealous! i saw your sig and meant to ask! :wub2:

     

    I had just enough time to hand him the book I wrote for him, watch him set it down, and snap the picture before I totally spazzed out and ran away while he shouted "thank you" to my back. I half-turned to say "you're welcome" nearly fell over, turned back around, nearly ran into the security guy, took a step, and nearly tripped over a chair.

     

    That's pretty much how pretty he is :biggrin2:

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