bitter.icarus

New stuff.

I think I've improved leaps and bounds.

Guilty, pressured, unmotivated.

Physically exhausted and super sore from yoga, frisbee, and basketball. Emotionally happy, confused, and a little heartbroken.

Itchy. Sorta unclean. And COLD!

Disoriented by your^ siggie emote.

Slightly rejected, plus my foot's numb!

Drowsy. Darn allergy medication! I don't even have allergies!

Hungry for McNuggets.. with plum sauce!

Conspired against. Oh, the woes of body image and PCOS.

Tired! And.. in trouble.

In love with Mika, strong. Excited!

Accomplished! Motivated! Like dancing!

Cheer up, MFCers!

Well, I should take my own advice.

I am irritated by my family. I hate them.

Sorta sleepy.

Like laughing.

Slow Ya Roll (feat. Chester Bennington), Young Buck

[Young Buck]

Heyyyy! I gotta slow down

I said we gotta slow down

Let me take you back to high school, ninety-fo'

When at least when a nigga had time to go

Walk to the bus stop, sellin rocks on the way

Lil' bad mother****er with a pocket full of yay

Fell in love with a shorty that was bad

I would go and skip class just so I could see that ass

But she was too fast, and I was too slow

Cause she wanted a nigga who already had dough

She found her a man who was like twenty-fo'

But what she didn't know that he had plenty hoes

She was too young; so now he got a new one

Cause shorty went and bought her a new gun

See when she catch this nigga she gon' do somethin

Not fight, but shorty gon' shoot somethin

But she never got a chance, a change of plans

Shot herself in the back puttin the gun in her pants

[Chorus: Young Buck]

Live life young nigga, quit tryin to be grown

You gon' miss momma when she dead and gone

So slow your roll - slow it down my nigga

Slow your roll - slow down my nigga

Live life lil' mama, quit tryin to be grown

You gon' miss daddy when he dead and gone

So slow your roll - c'mon gotta slow down

Slow your roll - think you gotta slow down

[Young Buck]

I got a graveyard tatted on my arm

So I'ma just start with my uncle William Hahn

My momma only brother, he served in the Navy

He lost his life because the war made him crazy

My nephew Shannen, 15 years old

When I think how he died I get real cold

Cause they found him in a field with some crack stones

There was no flesh, it was just bones

I was just home, with my cousin Craig

And then I got a phone call said they found him dead

So what's next, ain't went to Bizz funeral yet

Instead of one casket I need two of them ****s

It don't quit, just when you think I'm seein better days

My auntie just find that she got AIDS

And it's ****ed up, cause her life don't end

And she locked up, so she dyin in the pen', damn

[Chorus]

[Chester Bennington]

This can't be life, we're living

Cause I don't wanna live no more

I don't wanna live no morrrrrre

This can't be life, we're living

Cause I don't wanna live no more

I don't wanna live no morrrrrre

This can't be life we're living

Cause I don't want it no morrrrrre, no morrrrrre

This can't be life we're living

Cause I don't want it no morrrrrre

No mooooooo-orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre

[Chorus]

[Chester Bennington harmonizes to the end]

My foot's itchy.

Sort of deliriously happy. Surprised our teacher with a mockmentary/weloveyou film today at school. Lots of hugs all around.

I have hiccups. And I'm sick. I want a bike! Two tests tomorrow I haven't studied at all for.

Moderately accomplished. Stressed!

Shivery and cold.

dang! Well, get A LOT of soup, it's really the only way to go.

 

I'm hungry. That ice-cream in the freezer is calling me. . . "Eat me! You know you want me! No one's home, they won't find out, just come downstairs and eat me!" . . . Must resist!

That reminds me.. there's ice cream in the freezer downstairs too..

Half Mast, Empire of the Sun

Come on now can we talk about it like we used to talk about

Hotel in the hills with a carousel

Farmhouse in the front a tractor in the lounge

Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know

Listen now can we talk in love and walk the town

Be easy now, go hiking through the hills in a summer gown

Raise the kids, peace within and make our sound

Hear me now, I'm down on knees and praying

Though my faith is weak

Without you so please baby please give us a chance

Make a mends and I will stand until the end

A million times a trillion more

Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know

Smile baby don't cry

I will only fly with you by my side

Baby I'm cornered now

Baby don't push me out

Lately I walk in doubt

Maybe it's crashing down

Baby can you save it now

Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know

Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know

Baby I'm cornered now

Baby don't push me out

Lately I walk in doubt

Maybe it's crashing down

Baby I'm cornered now

Baby don't push me out

Lately I walk in doubt

Maybe it's crashing down

Us MFC members are here for ya! Whatever is wrong, life has it's funny little way of making things right. Don't worry.

Hey Thank you hun ! you're so sweet

Ditto.

I feel.. better now. Not perfect. But getting there.