bitter.icarus

New stuff. I think I've improved leaps and bounds.

Guilty, pressured, unmotivated.

Physically exhausted and super sore from yoga, frisbee, and basketball. Emotionally happy, confused, and a little heartbroken.

Itchy. Sorta unclean. And COLD!

Disoriented by your^ siggie emote.

Slightly rejected, plus my foot's numb!

Drowsy. Darn allergy medication! I don't even have allergies!

Hungry for McNuggets.. with plum sauce!

Conspired against. Oh, the woes of body image and PCOS.

Tired! And.. in trouble.

In love with Mika, strong. Excited!

Accomplished! Motivated! Like dancing!

Cheer up, MFCers! Well, I should take my own advice.

I am irritated by my family. I hate them.

Sorta sleepy.

Like laughing.

Slow Ya Roll (feat. Chester Bennington), Young Buck [Young Buck] Heyyyy! I gotta slow down I said we gotta slow down Let me take you back to high school, ninety-fo' When at least when a nigga had time to go Walk to the bus stop, sellin rocks on the way Lil' bad mother****er with a pocket full of yay Fell in love with a shorty that was bad I would go and skip class just so I could see that ass But she was too fast, and I was too slow Cause she wanted a nigga who already had dough She found her a man who was like twenty-fo' But what she didn't know that he had plenty hoes She was too young; so now he got a new one Cause shorty went and bought her a new gun See when she catch this nigga she gon' do somethin Not fight, but shorty gon' shoot somethin But she never got a chance, a change of plans Shot herself in the back puttin the gun in her pants [Chorus: Young Buck] Live life young nigga, quit tryin to be grown You gon' miss momma when she dead and gone So slow your roll - slow it down my nigga Slow your roll - slow down my nigga Live life lil' mama, quit tryin to be grown You gon' miss daddy when he dead and gone So slow your roll - c'mon gotta slow down Slow your roll - think you gotta slow down [Young Buck] I got a graveyard tatted on my arm So I'ma just start with my uncle William Hahn My momma only brother, he served in the Navy He lost his life because the war made him crazy My nephew Shannen, 15 years old When I think how he died I get real cold Cause they found him in a field with some crack stones There was no flesh, it was just bones I was just home, with my cousin Craig And then I got a phone call said they found him dead So what's next, ain't went to Bizz funeral yet Instead of one casket I need two of them ****s It don't quit, just when you think I'm seein better days My auntie just find that she got AIDS And it's ****ed up, cause her life don't end And she locked up, so she dyin in the pen', damn [Chorus] [Chester Bennington] This can't be life, we're living Cause I don't wanna live no more I don't wanna live no morrrrrre This can't be life, we're living Cause I don't wanna live no more I don't wanna live no morrrrrre This can't be life we're living Cause I don't want it no morrrrrre, no morrrrrre This can't be life we're living Cause I don't want it no morrrrrre No mooooooo-orrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre [Chorus] [Chester Bennington harmonizes to the end]

My foot's itchy.

Sort of deliriously happy. Surprised our teacher with a mockmentary/weloveyou film today at school. Lots of hugs all around.

I have hiccups. And I'm sick. I want a bike! Two tests tomorrow I haven't studied at all for.

Moderately accomplished. Stressed!

Shivery and cold.

That reminds me.. there's ice cream in the freezer downstairs too..

Half Mast, Empire of the Sun Come on now can we talk about it like we used to talk about Hotel in the hills with a carousel Farmhouse in the front a tractor in the lounge Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know Listen now can we talk in love and walk the town Be easy now, go hiking through the hills in a summer gown Raise the kids, peace within and make our sound Hear me now, I'm down on knees and praying Though my faith is weak Without you so please baby please give us a chance Make a mends and I will stand until the end A million times a trillion more Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know Smile baby don't cry I will only fly with you by my side Baby I'm cornered now Baby don't push me out Lately I walk in doubt Maybe it's crashing down Baby can you save it now Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know Oh oh oh honey I need you round I know I know Baby I'm cornered now Baby don't push me out Lately I walk in doubt Maybe it's crashing down Baby I'm cornered now Baby don't push me out Lately I walk in doubt Maybe it's crashing down

Ditto. I feel.. better now. Not perfect. But getting there.