beccah :)

yes! i think we have some good talent wow! i watched it on c4 for a bit, bet it was loud with all the screaming fans haah!

kids of 88 are awesome! haha, loved seeing the red carpet interview thingys!

gin's personality wasn't what i was expecting, haha and her outfit!

Hello peeps.

 

I just got back from the VNZMAs, does anyone here like NZ music?

I really like Kids of 88:wub2:, and they were amazing, really friendly too. And Gin is also quite good live. To be honest im not really too into the NZ music scene, but we definately have some good talent i reckon.

 

 

 

Hello!

 

I definately reccomend Coromandel or Pauanui. They are about a two-three hour drive (a nice drive, mind you ) from auckland. I just got back from a little holiday in pauanui today and its nice even at this time of the year so during January should be lovely.

 

Auckland! Hehe, i live in south auckland. (like way south auckland) Go up the sky tower. Its pretty high, and you can see like the whole auckland waterfront and stuff.

 

And of course theres the Rotorua, south island, general tourist places. Me, living here all my life, haven't actually been to too many places in NZ...What a good citizen i am! Haha.

of course! add away

i take continuing, which is like the harder class than general, but it's easier than the whole physics year course, if you can understand that? haha

i'm 5th form-year 11 nearly over though!!

haha, dont apologise i cant remember if you did either ^-^

spring makes me so happy! *sigh*

no, i went to the bishopdale ymca gym. well, i did pump once and i thought it was good, but so hard! and i think i will stick to step

um, i dont usually go hah, but i think i will go to step regularly and maybe join next year, oh and i do yoga haha! i love it! so good for you!

woop woop! go kiwi thread you guys! all those results sound amazing!

i got some of mine back too!

Need a bit of work for math and science- but i surprised myself with a merit in trig and a merit in physics!

and yeah haha, all is well as it is now holidays and warm in christchurch for once!

it seems that spring lasts for about a week then summer arrives!

and i'm feeling good because i just got home from a step class, it was so good!

YAY! im glad you love him in glasses too! i love him in everything really haha!

Yeah, a few. but some only from far away, if you get closer you realise they arn't like meeks at all

haha, he ABSOLUTELY belongs here

yeah, perhaps, maybe banks peninsula volcanoes are changing? i dont know, eek!

haha! AWH, your lecturer sounds kind of lovely, apart from the checking the students out, since he's way older hah! ^-^

i actually think mika looks so sweet in the kick ass vid, he suits glasses, don't you think? a bit nerdish but still nice,. except i hate it when he is all bruised and all

well, i hope you feel better today

haha! totally agreed with your comment about it being so much better on here than tv or whatnot!

yeah, ncea! haha, awh, yeah i'm not good at science, i get distracted haha! and just have kinda decided i dont need it either :0

awh! bet the teacher is absolutely gorgeous. mika teaching? heheh, sounds cute! i can picture him walking in and being all shy and lovely

i do always do better in subjects i love,

hah, you better say, i think i might go to sweeney todd if i can get tickets and afford it ^-^

anyway, off to bed for me goodnight!

exams start on wednesday but my first one is on friday, i have english,math,science,history,drama and an art one when we just paint and dont actually have an exam. so, five like you do

what do you think of art history? next year i'm going to take english,drama,media,classics and history how about you?

WOW! that sounds fantastic, well i hope you have a fun two days and work hard to make some amazing music what do you play? or do you sing, or play and sing haha? i would love to hear you sometime (:

well, i feel much happier now that you know that he's legit

awh! a few weeks/months ago i saw this guy across the road (i was at the busstop) and he was with his friends i think. i couldn't help but gaze at him haha! he seemed the most outlandish of the group, and he had the cutest style/clothing and hair similar to meeks'. oh! and these oldfashioned glasses! hehe! awh! that's no fair! they should all be nice to you, you seem lovely

yeah, the first few days the aftershocks were really big, and devastating! my school, burnside high was one of the welfare centers but the people had to move because of cracks caused by the aftershocks. it certainly will not be forgotten, ever i dont think. i am so grateful for the help workers, they have done so much! no, although i haven't been out particularly much, i will try and sniff some out maybe that is from the silt that has bubbled up from under ground, a lot of people's ground has been covered with the sticky mess. perhaps? that's okay haha, sulfur

awh thankyou! the ones next term are the really important ones so i hope they go alright!

haha! yeah i really need to start seriously studying ^-^

we are alright! lots of homes ruined and some of our heritage buildings crumbling but we are holding up ok, the kiwi way haha!

wow! i would love to go to rocky horror, i love that movie! would be pretty amazing in theatre form! i love theatre, acting and singing. you will be lucky if you get to go! well, if you go to either im sure you will have a fantastic time! must tell me about it hah! nice talking to you (:

i have mock exams this coming week, so i know what you must be going through~ with the study and all!

anyway, long time i haven't been on here either

need my fix of mfc (:

well, it's been kinda stressful and hard for the past few days cause i live in christchurch and we have just had a big earthquake and aftershocks for the days following it. I heard that Adam Lambert is coming to NZ, which is awesome, because i absolutely adore him; his music,talent and everything but he is only doing a show in auckland and i cant afford to go ^-^

oh well, will you get the chance to go? i hope you do!

haha~ i would love to hear your revenge story

terrible of me really, isn't it?

when we are supposed to be on here, just because of Meeks and his wonderfulness!

haha! you are nice

Oh and BTW, UPDATE on the Marco situation: THERE IS NONE.

 

Marco is an asshole and a malicious, thoughtless, insensitive bastard and I HATE him!

I'm not using the term lightly, he did the unforgivable by my standards in the long weekend.

 

The mutual friend was speaking to M on gmail about the fsjal drawing templates (google fsjal, it's the outline of a cartoon person you're supposed to add to) and Marco said "Are you going to draw Khayla?" and MF said "Yep." and Marco said "Well you don't need to worry about her eyes, they're already wonky enough."

 

MF didn't reply.

 

I was brought to tears for 3 periods and got into an argument with the art teacher because I had decided it wasn't worth working when I was only going to be the blind girl anyway.

The way I saw it at the time was that even if I was the best, I'd be considered "Great for someone who's half blind" and no matter what I did - What I DO - I never seem to get anywhere with my eyes. I go through the pain, fear, discomfort and thousands of dollars for 2 surgeries (one when I was 6 and one in July this year) and I'm STILL the girl with wonky eyes EVEN THOUGH they're not wonky anymore!

 

I disown anyone who is mean about my eyes. I slapped someone for saying I had beautiful eyes last year.

Well, in all honesty, he was talking about my boobs but that person also knew how extremely sensitive I am about them. I can't stand even compliments - I fear kids for their constant staring at me, even though I can't see their eyes, I freak because I'm always so sure they're looking at my eyes.

 

For my FRIEND to say something like that automatically cancells him out. That was cruel and unfair and just plain foul. The reason people must hate him is because he gives them a reason.

this whole business with marco is horrible!

i cant believe that anyone can treat you so badly, about your sight etc.

and being someone close to you too!

i know you have sensitivities about your eyes; but i would like to say i think you have a beautiful personality and that you also have just a beautiful soul.

don't let anyone rip that quality from you; be strong, beat the bad times love,im here for you

n'aawh thanks so much~! i'm glad people like it :biggrin2:

 

Yeah, alot of effort alright (and alot of money for the material too) its taken all labour weekend.

so, it is for the aussie concert right? you get to go~ lucky i hope you have a great time! you will have to take lots of photos and tell me about it please haha!

hey caitlin! welcome to the MFC! im sure you will have a great time here!

zee flaaag.

 

ignore my stupid expression and desperate need of a haircut and everything else terrible about this photo..

 

WOW! this is sooo amazing! well done, it is so beautiful! you put a lot of effort in it is perfect, and really MIKA. haha! i love it! you have a cute expression hehe!

i agree haha! we have had some interesting conversations

can i add you? if that's alright... i dont twitter much cause i dont really get it haha!

and mostly because i have nothing witty to say at the time..

twittereats HAHA! cool, so cool.

well, i hope that you know that you can always talk to me; even though i may be half asleep since i stay up on here even though i may not know you that well; but i want to get to know you more:) i will listen, because i think you have a lot to say and im here to listen and try to understand.

he does sound cute

and i know, you cant always blame everything on everyone else ( blame it on the girls, who know what to do, BLAME IT ON THE BOYS WHO KEEP HITTING ON YOU!)

HAHA! your gdad is obviously trying to keep "cool and hip" or something along those lines

i dont mind if you want to rant and express the emotion; i find that sometimes it's good to let it out and you dont always have a good outlet/ person to chat to that will just listen and not judge so much.

im going to go to bed now, talk tomorrow if you want

well, i guess in some aspects you will always know where you stand with him by telling him what you think of him etc.

does he tell you what he thinks of you though?

particularly cold? alluring? mystical? you find coldness attractive?

i think i i liked a guy who was like that i would feel quite intimidated by him to be honest.

and he also sounds like a bit of a bully, perhaps he has issues at home and that's why he lashes out at others?

you obviously mean a lot to him because he treats you differently.

I guess that in the end all's well that ends well, and if it isn't well, it isn't the end.

you mother will do what's right for her and maybe it will be good for you to do what's good for you.

your granddad sounds like a nice person where do you live? and is there anything else that is upsetting you?

you dont seem too mean and cynical to me

i think it's a good idea for you to try and ignore/ forget about the crap that people are dealing you and channel it into doing something nice for yourself.

things will work out eventually; maybe in the future you will look back on this and laugh.

Thanks. It's nothing to do with you guys.

 

I was talking to a mutual friend of Marco and I. He said M wasn't there and we were talking about him. I didn't say anything about him that I wouldn't say to his face or admit to saying behind his back.

Then I found out that Marco had been there the whole time. He got angry about something I said about him not being gay because he couldn't even handel girls.

He said "I'm not gay!... And I can handel chicks!" I said I don't doubt that except that he seemed to freak out when I kissed him. He kissed me back then told all his friend about it like I was the one who insited it and he had nothing to do with it.

He didn't let go when I huged him! I let go and he held me clsoe. It happened 2 before I kissed him the second time. I pulled aay and he kissed me back but then he said he only liked me as a friend.

 

That was last term and I accepted he only wanted to be friends but I was and AM so sure he liked me.

 

Lately he keeps asking me what I'm talking about when I'm in the middle of a conversation with that mutual friend. I just thought maybe he was beginning to show he cared or something but with him, you never know.

Today I asked the mutual friend to add me to Gmail. Marco kept telling me to download proper google talk but I said no.

 

I got on later today and added the mutual friend. He denied when I asked if Marco was there and we spoke of him and then we're back at the first parograph.

 

Oh and he's also angry that I'm not using the program he told me to download.

Whatever.

 

HOW DARE HE spy on me!

Then he left and I was so pissed at him for leaving and not even letting me say what I said in case he was still watching (he hacked) I said "You kissed me back and ran away. That ain't handling them."

 

After that, I got back on after Marco had gone (I hope) and the MF said that e had said that MF must tell him everything of our conversation.

 

I've been having problems at home. My mother doesn't really want me around much so she's trying to leave me and go live with her boyfriend. IDK if I already said that before but just in case. It just feels like he doesn't want me but he wants to violate my privacy and hurt me for no good reason and every time he rejects me, I am reminded of how bad things are already going outside of Marco.

wow! it seems like a lot has been going on in your life as of late. It seems as though this Marco doesn't know what to do about what he feels for you- perhaps he likes you but he didn't want to ruin the friendship that you had by becoming more than friends. Or he might not think that his actions had affected you so dramatically- maybe if you shared your thoughts with him about feeling betrayed that your MF was letting him spy on you he might understand your angry reaction to his words and actions. I too would be angry if he listened in, maybe he really wanted to know if you properly liked him back?!!

i think it's really silly that he got angry about the Google talk thing and that it is your decision whether to use it or not!

It also seems as though the problems surrounding home life and your mother are surfacing because Marco is being horrible to you. try and talk to your mother about how you feel; that maybe you want her to stay.

what would you do if she did leave?

do you have siblings or other family to live with you?

maybe, if you give Marco the cold shoulder a wee bit he might get the idea that he had upset you and he may go about fixing it up by talking it through with you.

hope this has helped; i don't know if i have though. i don't want to make it worse.

I'll reply you guys later. Just letting you know I'm not ignoring you or anything. Something's come up and I don't really feel like talking school with people ATM.

oh, I'm really sorry. I hope everything's okay! Sorry if i offended you or anything! And also, that whatever that has happened sorts itself out for you.

I was hoping I could send you or Charlotte a letter for him if you wouldn't mind?

 

I agree fullheartedly about the acting. Don't settel, don't give up and do what your parents want you to do. My mother wants me to finish school and go on to University but for all the wrong reasons.

I believed she cared about my education before she started to hurt me with her constant blackmail (the reason I can't see Mika) and before she told me to do all these things in Uni that I obviously HATED (psychology, management, law... Nothing you could see me doing in a million years!).

 

 

I've been a fan since 12 (February '07 )

 

No problem but as I said, don't thank me till you get your results

Was it good help then do you think?

i too was hoping that someone wouldn't mind taking a letter or something from me to him too?

it's really kind of you guys to care so much, i think i will have to work it out for myself too!

it sounds as though your mother is trying to give you advice and help you but it can be taken the wrong way a lot, by me too when things like that happen! im sure you will work out what you want to do eventually; do you have any ideas?

I know what you mean about the bullying. I'm half blind so I get a lot of close minded people giving me crap. I'm really weird though besides that. I talk funny (my accent's a bit all over the place), I'm funny looking and have a very distinctive walk so I get bullied for it now and also for my belifs.

 

I do ok in school. I get by. I've got a good personality so teachers like me

 

Are you not allowed to play a lead if you're young?

I was a semi lead in our production and the leads were all my age or thereabouts...

 

Arg! I HATE bad groups!

But I've been fortunate. The first group I had consisted of 2 other girls. They didn't like my bloodthirsty and adult style and ideas. The only things I was to contribute were the names of the three little pigs (pork, ham and bacon ), the tralor park mother with a new boyfriend (so she kicked the kids out), the pigs eating the wolf at the end after he attempts to come down the chimney and gets killed in the fire AND my voice.

The next group was me and my twistedness, Georgy orgy , Emz and her overmodesty and Ryan with his rangy bro town themed voices.

That was the most sexually, racially and just downright offensive play in the class with a chicken scene, racial steriotypes, innuendos, racist and sexist jokes and bad language!

I played characters called "Slutty Michelle" "Mate" "Celine smyth" and "gasngster girl with bad Maori/Polynisian accent"

There was the clown play. I was a genderless clown and modest Emily and I were doing ok but our third member was a constant issue, never showing up and never doing any work when she was there.

The last thing I did was Hansel and Gretel (and Lezel). It was with the bad member, modest Emily, Georgy Orgy and Ryan. That was brilliant and - Again - Quite on-the-edge but now people were expecting it and it was better recieved because people expected us to be offensive and embraced it.

 

I want to act, sing, write, dance burlesque, pin up model, design clothes, direct and do art. I want to ENTERTAIN!!!

Yeah, I'm glad to do things I like. Music and art arn't the best things ever. I don't need them to be good at them

 

What are you good at?

i have contacts and glasses and i guess I'm not really ordinary. i have a really strong personality and opinions, i try to be optimistic but it is difficult sometimes! i have a friend who is really sensitive about her walk. don't put yourself down so much! I'm sure you are a really nice person, from what i have realized anyway and i have only just "met" you as such!

no, you have to be year 11 to play a lead role at our school

it sounds like you get a lot of opportunity to express yourself in drama, which is what it's all about really! and i love that you have so many threads of interest that you want to follow, i want to do a lot of those too.

i really want to learn to dance and would love to pluck up enough courage to audition for singing

i guess im quite good at english,art and drama. i really like them too!

i can play the piano a bit which i would like to continue/ start up again with.

i love baking and writing and all that!

i like lots of things- authenticity, photography, talking haha!

whoa you guys and your chinwagging,,.. how will i keep up?

 

how weird is it though, that out of the 3 regular NZ'ers (and now a new one) two (and now 3) are 15 year old girls?

 

(i've been a fan sincei was 13 now though. )

 

and khayla, thatnks for your help with my health assesment.. you were up late as last night!

haha! we seem to have been talking a lot, but i had to go to bed lastnight! i was so exhausted at 12! i think, it is really great and kinda crazy!

ive been a fan for a few years maybe 2 and a half now!