Tatiana, I am so so very sorry for your losses. It is such a blow to the system when someone dies, so for you to experience this many losses in a short space of time must be heartbreaking. Things may seem awful at the moment, and it's normal to feel as if your heart is bursting with all these dreadful emotions but you will come through this. You sound like a loving and caring person who loves those close to you very much. Remember all the good times you shared with each and no one ever goes, a little bit of them will always live on in you. Thinking of you, love Sam xoxox