anthusa

hhmmm... by pm 3 time last week and yesterday... thats about it!

its hard to stop blaming myself. Think he has told me twice in pm's and once by text not to blame myself for what happened... but doesnt change it Cos i somewhere think it is my own fault that i got too much meds. in my blood. I just donno about the small panic attact. Was his hairstylist who said i had that... she took care of me for a few hours to make sure i got better... and i went back to the hotel when she did with her... sucked i had to leave around midnight!