calicojasmine

Suzanne!!! Shock Shock Me!!!!

But if anyone can understand and empathize your situation it is me, Sweetie.

Of course you need to look after yourself... take care of yourself - on every level..... do whatever it takes to heal and relax and be well, and of course we will be in touch.... I will always be here for you, my dear, dear friend....

xoxo

Joan

I'm thinkin' - ANY kind of Asian food...... yummmm......

when I was in Canada I wore winter jacket in August, in the morning though, it really is cold there.

Welcome to our world.

I'm so happy right now!!!

I feel a bit like a new fangirl today:wub2:

 

Care to share????

exactly! SPREAD THE GLITTER!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY SENTIMENTS EXACTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIFE IS TOOOOOOOO SHORT!!!!! WE PASS THIS WAY ONLY ONCE!!!!!

 

haha, what time is it over there?

 

 

i feel like honey chai tea, i'm going to make some now!

 

BTW emily, it was 2:46 AM over here - like I said, time to eat dinner!!!

I am very happy today because I am understanding my life and what I need to do to change it! oh man talk about excitement! wooot!

 

 

I wrote a blog on myspace kind of venting ( its all true tho)

and it was most therapeutic! things are changing rapidly but for the good!

woot!

 

Elanorelle

HEY GIRRRRRRLLLLLLLL!!!!

Glad you're so UPPPPP!!!

I'm kinda fluctuating - more like a rollercoaster these days... so what else is new??? But very glad to hear that things are working out for you.......

I STILLLLL have your beautiful flowers and balloon!!!! That in itself makes me SOOOO HAPPY!!! I think I'm going to permanently move into this thread!!!

I really like Facebook. Never got into MySpace.

I'd probably be the one fainting seeing Mika around Mika's house. God forbid!

 

How can she even find time to make music with all the negativity and drama in her life? And now, if true, TB?! She has so much talent and it's sad that she might not have even reached her full potential. But then again, her drama might be the fuel that drives her creativity. I've always theorized that artistic genius and mentall illness seem very closely related.

Suzy, I think you nailed it right on the head.... There certainly seems to be a parallel between creativity, drama and the dual diagnosis of mental illness and drug use... Just look at all the "greats" who have succumbed to early passings from music careers laced with drug overdoses..... Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix, Jim Morrisson, to name just a few. And I'm not even mentioning all those who are currently "courting" the behavior..... of which, sadly, Ms. Winehouse is included.....

no, you're not 'ka-razy' but i don't know many people that eat dinner at 5am..

 

That's 'cause I sometimes fall asleep when I'm eating at 3:00 AM and finish when I wake up at 5:00 AM! I TOLD you I was ka-razy! Speaking of which, I think I better go eat now....

Oh my!

You really sound like you need to lie still in the sun for a week!

Go find your self one of those deck chairs, a parasol and a nice drink and just concentrate of doing nothing!

 

 

 

:bye:Nice trip!

YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!! PARASOL DRINKS!!! You know the ones... the little umbrellas in the cocktails.... no cruise is complete without at LEAST 3 per day......... Have a couple on me!!!!!

i am so full!

i smell like chinese food as well, it's making feel sick..

Ohhhhh nooooooooo.......

I haven't even had dinner yet.........

You're probably wondering - WTF????

But I'm in the "Joan Zone".... nothing makes sense in here... I eat dinner at 5:00 AM and sleep until 3:00 PM - 'cause I'm KA-RAZY!!!!!!!!!!

too bad our online paths did not cross until now..

looking forward to reading more from you

HEY, LIKEWISE!!!

Sorry I didn't react to your previous posts, but I'm really terrible with all this emotional stuff so I tend to not respond to it It must be horrible to not be able to go out when you want to It's quite admirable that you just find a way to get on anyway though

Yeah, I have a couple of expressions:

"Life sucks and then you die".

"That which doesn't kill you makes you crazy".

It also helps to have a great trauma therapist!!! LOL!

Seriously, though, I guess I have a helluva lot of experience dealing with hardship and trauma.... and I'm incredibly stubborn.... refuse to go down without a fight.... they're gonna drag me out kicking and screaming! LOL!

Thank you for this thread! At least now I know where I can go to complain about this !

I'm currently craving CHINESE and CHOCOLATE CAKE.. And a little bit of texas fries would be cool as well

THANKS - NOW I'M TOTALLY JONESING!!!!!!!

well, i just had chinese food for dinner just then!

WELL, YOU'RE JUST B-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A-D!!!!!

Well racha, this is real life for me! Last year I spent pretty much all my vacation on Mika gigs. I spent pretty much every night on the MFC - this is my life! Am I then a sad loser with no real friends? No I'm certainly not! I have plenty of friends and I am in no way ashamed of having met a lot of them through MFC Actually - apparantly opposed to other working single mothers - I find that I have a lot of time to spend on internet forums, since I can't leave my appartment after 8 PM and I often find myself sitting at home on a saturday night when everyone else is out partying. This has been a brilliant way for me to meet new friends

I know how that can be... I'm home a lot, too. 'Way too sick to go out.... my computer is my window to the world..... MFC was really a godsend last year....

Hi calicojasmine

 

Thank you so much for your post.. there are many things you have pointed out that I completely agree with you...

 

but first...

 

I am so sorry for all the "real life" abuse that you went through and all the injustice (all the horrible things that happened to you)... It must have been really hard... and I really admire your positive approach to it all... it saddens me to hear your story... usually, not many stories out there touch me emotionally...I do not take any type of abuse lightly... especially REAL one..

 

I agree with you, the level of "abuse" and "bullying" that was being described.. is the "INTERNET" type.. and in no way close to the real deal!

 

yes, it was probably painful and emotionally stressful to the people who were subjected to it.. but in no way put in the same category as domestic violence and child abuse!! and to be very honest, I am shocked that anyone would think I have put them on the same level.... this would be extreemly irresponsible and horrible to the victims of REAL abuse..

 

I want to clarify this again and again... my point was never to put abusive posts on the same level as hitting a person or torturing a child! that would be plain stupid and illogical..

 

it was merely a reminder to people to tone down their aggression.. cause whatever they were doing was hurtful... I think message is there for people to either accept it and take it at face value.. or go on doing what they usually do... but at least for those who felt left out.. now they know that others have witnessed it and did not find it cool.

 

your post mentioned something every interesting... the parallel between REAL life and the MFC... and I would like to share MPOV

 

I like the MFC.. and I enjoy posting in a few threads... and have been in touch with many lovely people... it has been nothing but a pleasurable online fun... some of which I have actually met in REAL life...

 

but...

 

is it in anyway close to my real life?... no.

does it occupy any major importance in my real life, no.

do i take things as seriously here as real life, definitely not

and to be very honest, with all the love that I have for the people here.. are they really my REAL friends....also no!

 

they are amazing fun people that I have something in common with.. we socialize online when we have some free time on our hand in our real life...

 

we all have a packed real life that is full of real things... and real people .. with real emotions.. .and in no way a forum (at least in my case) will be close to anything to real life)

 

I am not undermining the MFC... but fair is fair.. and a forum is just a forum...

 

one last thing, I admire your courage.. and bless you for opening up... I wish you all the best..

Thanks, racha, points very well taken.......

I totally agree with you - there are different levels of abuse ad bullying - all I am trying to do is remind people to sit back, take a deep breath and perhaps indulge in a wake up call or three..... I know I have to do it every now and again (more often than not!) In fact, when I start getting morose about my own situation it helps me to sit back and remember the AIDS patients I used to help as a medical social worker..... it is humbling when one realizes that there are truly those who are worse off than you....

There is an expression: "I cried because I had no shoes until I met the man who had no feet."

Truly. My father used to say that. He is the dearly departed, had a terrible, horrific death. However I digress.

I know you mean well, and absolutely respect your opinion and courage in posting your thoughts and convictions. I am merely offering a different point of view. For whatever it's worth, for however long I can hold it.

CRAVINGS???????????

THANKS, GUYS, FOR GETTING ME GOING HERE!!!!

WHERE DO I START??????

CHINESE FOOD.....................

CHOCOLATE.......................... :naughty:

CHEESECAKE.........................:naughty:

THANKS A LOT!!!

You don't.

Thanks for another sensible perspective.

Thanks babs.

And you are MOST welcome!!!!

Okay Guys! Stop! My turn now:

I've read 98% of this thread, reflecting on the differing points and opinions.... I have some pretty strong feelings, and I certainly do not want to minimize anyone else's convictions. I would also like to add that I really hope that in the course of the last year+ I have not been perceived to have insulted/abused/bullied anyone, as that would be the very last thing I would have intended. I make it a personal commitment to speak from my heart and soul; I do not play games, and being a victim of abuse/bullying myself, I do not take any of this lightly.

Believe it or not, I feel for EVERYONE here... I believe everybody has a right to express their views as well as to be fairly heard in this forum. Feelings should always be considered. The truth should always be expressed. You know the expression - "Do unto others........." Well, there you go. Simple stuff, right?

But I have to also say - People! Take a chill pill! Are we mistaking some careless posting for the real offender - "Bullying"? "Abuse"???? Yes, feelings get hurt... egos get a little trampled...... but can you really put all this in the same context as the children who are battered and women who are victims of domestic violence?

Again, I must stress... I do NOT mean to minimize ANYONE'S feelings here... I give kudos to all who have had the courage to come forward and air their grievances in this disturbing manner. But I also would like to disclose a part of me that is so close, so hidden and disturbed. And I do this simply for the sake of perhaps helping one of you...... I have been a victim of bullying/abuse since I was in utero. There was family violence, domestic violence (when I was married) and many medical misdiagnoses.... I will lose my life because of this. I am bleeding out as we speak. Every day I get weaker. I'm not holding a Pity Party, only asking to see this issue in it's proper perspective. I don't take one day at a time, I take one second at a time.

What I'm trying to say here is - life is too short. We pass this way only once. Therefore we need to make the time that we do have here really count. I try to see the humor in everything; I love Mika's music more than ever; I stop to smell the roses every chance I get..... I'm attempting to let go of all my anger and let everyone I care about how much they mean to me. And if someone pisses me off.... well...... I'm trying to get over that too.........

I do NOT mean to sound "holier than thou" - I heard that loud and clear in the beginning of this thread, and, believe me, that is the farthest thing from my mind. But I do have the benefit of experience....... if not the luxury of time.

To everyone........... I wish all the best life has to offer......

HAHA Caz you didn't fool me for one second!!!!!!!

But then again I'm such a cynical, jaded old thing!!! LOL!

I hope you have a wonderful time on the cruise!!! Get spoiled! It feels like you're a Queen! I have great memories of my 2-week cruise to Alaska in 2003!

BON VOYAGE!!!!

She's like me!

 

 

Welcome back!

You eat ice too???????

What's the fascination????

I've had ice chips after surgery... before they give you clear fluids or feed you.....

But actually, it makes sense.... zero calories..... Jenny Craig would be soooo proud.....

Yeah, my parents are planning on helping but it's still not going to cover it. I'm thinking about living in a rented room in someone's house. And getting an on-campus job and all those sorts of things. Haha. Should be interesting. But, yeah. It's all gonna work out:wink2:.

 

Yes, I've heard a lot about the WWF and things of that sort. Great organizations.

 

Hey, my dad's yelling at me to get off of the computer:naughty:. So, it was very nice to meet you and talk to you Joan. I enjoyed it very much. I'll see you around and talk to you later. GOODNIGHT AND THANKS!!

You are most welcome!!! We will most def chat again!!!

You don't come across as a know it all. Don't worry. You just know what you're talking about and giving me advice from what you've experienced.

 

That's awesome that you're going to write memoirs. I often find those to be interesting.

 

Well, I am planning on going to this community college about an hour away from my house. Why so far? Because they have the only program in the U.S. that teaches people how to train exotic animals, which is what I'm interested in. I actually want to eventually end up working at Sea World as a killer whale trainer. And I heard that the college I want to go to is the best place to get a start. The only problem is that I'm not sure if I have enough money for living expenses and things of that sort...So, I'm trying to figure that out.

OH WOW!!!! Does that ever sound fantastic!!!! :punk:What a wonderful career that would be!!! I can totally relate 'cause I'm a major animal lover/advocate and do lots for the SPCA and the WWF (World Wildlife Federation - I'm sure you already know this!)

Anyways - in terms of money - first off, can your parents help you? Can you get a student loan? You mentioned you were looking for a summer job. There's also working part-time while you're going to school. Or maybe some family or friend could give you a loan. But don't give up!!! It's totally do-able! I got my degree in social work when I went back to school in my 30's. If I can do it, anyone can!!! And I put myself through, no one helped! All the while I was in an abusive marriage and injured in a car accident. Like I said, if I can do it under those circumstances anyone can!!!!

 

Really, thank you so much for those words. Everyday, I do my very best to be nothing but myself and listen to my heart. But, as we all know, it's tougher said than done. So, far, I think I'm doing an ok job, though:wink2:. I am taking your advice to heart and I want to thank you sincerely for it.

 

...And trust me, I will have fun:naughty:.

 

Thanks again Joan:wub2:...and by the way, my name is Brittany.

Hey, Brittany, so nice to meet you!!!!

Yeah, I don't want to come off as the "know-it-all" but,boy oh boy, I have enough material to fill at least 6 books! Everyone I know tells me I should be writing it all down - I am a writer - but my focus has been on survival - once I get the basics under control I will write some memoirs, I think......

I am POSITIVE you are going to have FUN!!! Are you going away to college? Going to live in a dorm or off campus? What will you be studying? Any career choices? I know, I know, I ask a lot of questions. You can tell me to shut up and go away anytime, you know... hehe:naughty: