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Naaaarh... Maybe.

But not atm.. Pfff still angry..

Havent said one word to my mom for 1 1/2 day now lol

And i have been looking for jobs today.. And found some.. And took the links and made a list.. And will probably find some more tomorrow.

And then start to apply for them >.

I emailed the counsellor today.. To ask for the email.

When i think about it... I just sound really desperate

Yeaah.. Well i woke up a few times. And was like "i'm awake" and then i slept again.

Because he is

He also didnt have a hat like us others. He just took a random hat

I dunno why i looked so weird at him!

I look kinda scary haha

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10204120691518273&id=1255034625

No need to watch it all lol

Yeah i took pills for the headache and a sleeping pill, and went to bed

But i'm not up for going out when i'm like crying and being angry!

Crying seriously give me a headache

Was supposed to go out with my friend tonight.

But once again my mom was just being nasty. And making mean comments. AS SHE ALWAYS DO!

So now i'm not going.. Because she have ruined my mood.. And my head hurt of crying.

She always ****ing do it!! I'm so sick of it!!! She should just shut the hell up!

And now she just expect it all to be okay.

But i am so angry! I am not allowed to go out and have fun with my friends, and do something i like.. Without she have to ruin it! She is so nasty

I cant take it anymore..

I'm soooooo angry this time!

And actually i've no friends to celebrate it with.

They always bail on me.

Remember last year... I invited 7 people. 1 showed up.

The others ignored the invite or told me on the day that they wouldnt come anyway.

And it's always like that!

The day i graduated from college.. My friend told me he would be there... He didnt show up.. And didnt even tell me >_>

Well tbh i dont think i'll celebrate it at all...

I cant invite people home.... Well i dont want people to be in the same house as my dad. Soooo...

But i've birthday! >.

I dont know >.

Yeah

No.. Havent had time for it yet.

And i think it's so stressing.... I mean it takes a lot of time to apply for jobs >.

I have.

850 persons applied for it... So i kinda didnt get it

Not much.. I just need a job, and then i'm ready to go

But right after i have taken that photo

Or the cake is done

I would just be sad again

And say something positive about life.

Couldnt find anything.

And i'm not just saying that to make people feel sorry for me.

I honestly couldnt find anything

But i dont know what that makes me happy!

A person asked me to say a thing that makes me happy/ i like

I couldnt find one

Yeah well.. I'm also just think about stuff that makes me sad.. And then i get sad.. And then i think about the stuff that makes me sad.. And then it just keep going >.

... Tired!

And i think i am sad.. Not sure why.. But i think i am

And no sleeping is not any better

Bleh!