Thanks for your story.
You gave me courage to share mine.
I also had a "problem" in my infancy and adolescence: bullying.
My "friends" bullied me because of various reasons: because I was overweight, because I was the good girl, and probably there are other reasons I don't even know.
In the darkest time, like you, I thought about suicide but I didn't kill myself because, even if I was depressed, I thought I would have hurt my family. In fact, in contrast to what you say, I never shared anything about those moment I was bullied.
As I said in my introduction post I am a bit shy, and I became even more after what happened in my past. in fact I have no real friend because I don't trust anybody, not because I don't want but because I'm not able to trust anyone new in my life.
I've always loved Mika's music but I now love it even more because of the song "Hurts", because he says a major truth about life "nothing's only words, that's how hearts get hurt".
His music gave me strength because I understood that I'm not the only one that suffered and also that it's time to move on, I can't stay stuck in my old life and think about the past.
I decided to move on, trying to be more friendly with people, be more social, that's also why I joined the MFC.
We should remember that we can be what we want, no matter what people think about us.