I get that exactly. I mean not feeling accepted at school was just the tip of the iceberg for me. I went through an awful lot of stuff outside school that was so much worse, but it definitely didn't help that I wasn't accepted. I mean I just completely buried myself in things like Michael Jackson and now Mika, cos when you're completely on your own, you can just throw on a song and feel that little bit closer to someone, even if that closeness is just one sided. It's better than being completely cut off, and believe me, I get cut off from myself even, and its pretty awful. I never made any REAL friends until university, and even now I'm terrified that they're gonna betray me or abandon me - especially since some of them are the first people I've let in on everything thats happened to me.