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LOL!!! Have a picnic!! I'd steal Zorro, like you want it back? You'll have to chase me!! NO NOT THE SECURITY GUARDS... YOU!!!

LOL!! I'd just be like can I touch you... not inappropriately or anything... unless you want me to... but, please????

Well... we were practically there with sex-face... I just took the last little baby step!

It is... it's like, if there were audio, there'd practically be a moan to go with it!

I promise myself that kinda thing but it'll never happen!! I'll be like blerblahbehblahblahblah!

I'm sorry that you went through that. No one should have to. I was picked on, but not bullied that much. It was more like, I thought that I was "in" with the other kids. I felt like I could be just like them, I didn't think that I was any different, but I was always sort of pushed aside and made to be an outsider. I had really low self-esteem, and always felt intimidated about everything because I was afraid of what people would say about me. I was really shy, which is not some sort of thing where I feel like I'm too good to talk to other people---it was seriously a crippling thing! I'm still somewhat like that. I never really had any "real" friends, which caused me to turn to living my life being crazy over celebrities and music and movies and "imaginary" things---I never felt like I connected with people that I knew. I had friends, but not the type that I could say, "Oh, they are my soulmate best friend and I couldn't survive without them."

I get that exactly. I mean not feeling accepted at school was just the tip of the iceberg for me. I went through an awful lot of stuff outside school that was so much worse, but it definitely didn't help that I wasn't accepted. I mean I just completely buried myself in things like Michael Jackson and now Mika, cos when you're completely on your own, you can just throw on a song and feel that little bit closer to someone, even if that closeness is just one sided. It's better than being completely cut off, and believe me, I get cut off from myself even, and its pretty awful. I never made any REAL friends until university, and even now I'm terrified that they're gonna betray me or abandon me - especially since some of them are the first people I've let in on everything thats happened to me.

Stuff like this absolutely breaks my heart. After college, I plan on becoming a child psychologist because I want to help kids that are having problems such as this. I know how it feels to be an outsider and I know how it feels to be picked on and feel like you can't do anything right because everything that you think is acceptable is somehow "wrong" to your peers.

I know what you mean. I would wanna help kids like this but I'm too personally affected by the kind of lifestories I'd hear I wouldn't be able to handle it.

Sorry... other person! I get confused... think the usernames are similar!! There was one other member on here, but it's originally about a not-so-common problem so...

Yes, do not use that word...haha. Yeah, we don't want to do anything that would frighten him...or creep him out in any way.

Yes... he's such a delicate, innocent little flower... with his practically stripping off on stage, pole dancing with a mic, uber-pelvic-thrusts!

LOL!! We have been having like 10 conversations at once! Loadsa threads on here, facebook... myspace anyone?

LOL!! Just see if they notice you wallpapering over the TV with a mika poster... "no, mum, it's just a mika interview... honest!"

Yeah... I'd just call him up like ...

Exactimundo (remind me to NEVER use that word again!). Plus, he'd be less likely to file for a restraining order that way!! We all know the lyrics to Ring Ring!

ah... get ya now!! Ignore me. I'm rather stupid today!

LOL! Why not... I gradually moved in there!

true... although I remember him saying somewhere that he loves London cos its home.

I had a dream last night that my resident tutor and my personal tutor came to visit me, and Mika was my resident tutor's cousin and popped round with him while they were visiting!! Rather bizarre!!

start clicking on UK darling. Mika lives in the UK... he loves us more!!! Just kidding, but we can dream!

LOL!! I dunno... it used to be my sis's room, and they're pretty intent on keeping it that way. Maybe I could sneak my poster up...

Actually, I think I'd be quite good. I was missing one of my friends from uni SO much (like omg I miss this dude so much it HURTS), but I didn't contact him all summer til he contacted me last week. I think I'd have some will power with Mika

It's on mikasounds.com/uk under podcast!!

lol i couldn't be trusted with the number i'd call him each night and be like umm mika i need to tell you something and he'd be like again M4L? You called me last night and the night before that also and i'd be like i had another dream about you...and it'd go on and on

I'd be like so how's zorro? Can you babysit my tama... by the way, you know you're sexy, right?

As for my mum, she's not obsessed with him, but at least she admits to liking. Normally, if I'm into something, she hates it!

lol

 

and when he talks it's not as if he has a feminine voice he has a really nice voice that is quite recognizable as a man and then he sings billy brooooooooooooown and it's like wow is that the same guy? he must be an amazing performer!

I KNOW!! I first heard him speak on his podcast, and I was like NO WAY IS THIS THE SAME GUY!!! He needs to do another episode of that btw!

yes actually I did. I was in a horrible relationship in 2002 and I was dying inside. I couldn't play music, I couldn't sing, I didn't know how to write music..

although I had before. I broke off the relationship and discovered something about myself. When that happened, I could play music again, I could sing,

and I composed two pieces right away. Since then I have composed 12.

when you are sad and dying inside it can affect you in so many ways.

 

Suz

 

so I can relate indeed to his experienc.

I know what you mean. I had a pretty sh*tty childhood, and it's affected me awfully for nearly a decade now, and left me with a lot of psychological problems, SM being the lesser of numerous evils! I really struggle to speak, especially to people I don't know (I ordered mcdonalds today by writing my order on the back of an envelope!) or in front of more than like two people. I really don't like speaking to my family either, and often actually leave the room and sit upstairs just cos I can't handle the stress of it. I usually have to force myself to speak to them, but they'd probably just accuse me of insolence if I didn't! The only people I'm really comfortable speaking to are my friends at uni, but even with them I'll clam up if I'm particularly stressed or depressed

LOL!! Or if E.T. doesn't have time, just give me the number and I will!

I know!! It's awesome!!! I heard it described as a 'falsetto that would make Mickey Mouse's voice crack"!!