Thanks sweetie, , It was all relevent... and it probably is true my friends don't really understand me... I mean I am very different to them.... so maybe I should speak up more... as for the crush... as far as I know it's just hormones for him or I hope, cause he really is quite a nice guy most of the time... but now it seems like its his time of month if you get what I mean... and thanks again, it always makes me feel better to have people to talk to