England Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 thats not my namehats not my name thats not my- name they call me quiet girl but im a riot...... huh? oh, yeah, my nam is Tayler I love that song! the ting tings are awesome! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 Pouvez-vous parler du français ? Je vous attire ? Je vous repousse, avec mon mauvais sourire ? Suis-je trop sale ? Suis-j'aussi flirty ? Aime-t-je que vous aimez ? Un de mes chansons préférées ! ! ! J'aime Mika et son fan-club ! ! J'aime MFCers aussi ! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 I love that song! the ting tings are awesome! i love them!! do you like shut up and let me go? great dj? we walk? i love them!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
England Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 Pouvez-vous parler du français ? Je vous attire ? Je vous repousse, avec mon mauvais sourire ? Suis-je trop sale ? Suis-j'aussi flirty ? Aime-t-je que vous aimez ? Un de mes chansons préférées ! ! ! J'aime Mika et son fan-club ! ! J'aime MFCers aussi ! Je ne peux pas parler français mais le traducteur google est très utile I wish I could speak french though Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
England Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 i love them!!do you like shut up and let me go? great dj? we walk? i love them!! yeah! shup up and let me go is awesome and so is great dj I never heard we walk though Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 Je ne peux pas parler français mais le traducteur google est très utile I wish I could speak french though i can speak a little bit. i'm using a translater. but on the french thread they said it didn't make sense...... grr:sneaky2: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
England Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 i can speak a little bit. i'm using a translater. but on the french thread they said it didn't make sense......grr:sneaky2: I used a translater too geez...I wish i could speak french...they only teach us spanish at school though...but I'm glad for the mfc french /italian threads:wub2: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 g2g now...... see you tomorrow maybe nighttttttt Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
England Posted February 18, 2009 Share Posted February 18, 2009 g2g now......see you tomorrow maybe nighttttttt ok! goodnight Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 Taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.. You're on. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 Taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.. You're on. yes i am Becca, you seriously scared me yesterday...... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 yes i am Becca, you seriously scared me yesterday...... What? Why? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 What? Why? your wishes..... but you don't have to talk about it if you don't want Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 your wishes.....but you don't have to talk about it if you don't want Oh.. Well, I think it was the last one that scared you? Okay, jumping into the sea, water surrounding me, filing my mounth, my lungs, my veins. Water instead of air. Slowly becoming water myself, and slowly falling into a black/blue hole, with the last thing I see, smell, feel and taste the sea. For me, that would be a perfect death. But, dying is a bit like running away. I don't want to run away, but I do want to let everything go. Just leave it behind, and nothing matters anymore. So I don't have to feel that pain anymore. Everyday I feel pain inside, slowly consuming me. Pain in my heart, in my toughts, in me. And everyday, I want to leave it behind. But I can't. Because I have to keep going. I have to go on, and on and on. I don't want to anymore. I can't leave it behind, I can't escape it even a few minutes. I feel like I escape a few minutes, like I leave the world behind, everytime I cut. I want to, everyday. But I can't, because I want to keep my promise. Instead of cutting, I take paracetamol. If I feel bad, I take 5-10 tablets in a few minutes. It makes me feel good some time. I just can't feel anything anymore, when I do. Oh, and I want to cry. All the time I was cutting much, I did it so I wouldn't cry. But now I can't cry anymore. Not when I want to. And then there are my parents. They make me feel even worse. For my father I can't do anything right. He's always grumpy. He hits me when I do someting wrong, and my mother too. And if I start crying then, they hit me even harder. I just can't take it anymore. I'm never completely happy. Now you know. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 christ Becca, i can't believe you feel like that, you never show it. im always here for you, i know its not much help, but you will always be able to talk to me because your my best friend. i've never met you in life, but i feel more connected to you than my friends here at home. i asked my science teacher about drowning. its not as nice as you put it. he said you feel like your heads gonna burst.now i've killed your only way out. my god Becca, i am so sorry. i think i've just cried enough tears for the both of us. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mikasbestfriend Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 Hello girls Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 christ Becca, i can't believe you feel like that, you never show it. im always here for you, i know its not much help, but you will always be able to talk to me because your my best friend. i've never met you in life, but i feel more connected to you than my friends here at home.i asked my science teacher about drowning. its not as nice as you put it. he said you feel like your heads gonna burst.now i've killed your only way out. my god Becca, i am so sorry. i think i've just cried enough tears for the both of us. I'm quite good at hiding my feelings. I think it's the only thing I'm good at. I feel like you are my best friend. You know me better than anyone else. Thank you so much. Okay, I already thought it wouldn't be so good. Tay, I'm so sorry. I don't want you to worry about me. I don't want anyone to cry for me. I'm not worth it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 I'm quite good at hiding my feelings. I think it's the only thing I'm good at. I feel like you are my best friend. You know me better than anyone else. Thank you so much. Okay, I already thought it wouldn't be so good. Tay, I'm so sorry. I don't want you to worry about me. I don't want anyone to cry for me. I'm not worth it. Oh, did your teacher try it out? thats not the only thing you're good at. you make me come to this forum every day. to start with i was worried i wouldn't fit in. you instantly made me feel welcome and i don't want to lose that. or you. i don't talk to that many different people. i mainly talk to you. thatas why i come here, at the beginning i just hung around, watching other people talking, adn sure i come to check on the news every now and again, but if you're not here, i log back out after 10 mins. i will worry about you, you are the bravest person i have ever been lucky enough to talk to, you've been through alot and you have coped with most of it, and for some things, you talk to us to get it off your chest, thats what brave is. not fighting people or stealing things. you don't need to be sorry for the fact that i cried, you made me realise what a good friend you are. and how much i don't want you to feel this way. my teacher probably did. he kinda freaks me out...... i mean, he makes home made fireworks for his pregnant wife, he makes stink bombs in class, he collects dead things....... what more do i need to say? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 thats not the only thing you're good at. you make me come to this forum every day. to start with i was worried i wouldn't fit in. you instantly made me feel welcome and i don't want to lose that. or you. i don't talk to that many different people. i mainly talk to you. thatas why i come here, at the beginning i just hung around, watching other people talking, adn sure i come to check on the news every now and again, but if you're not here, i log back out after 10 mins.i will worry about you, you are the bravest person i have ever been lucky enough to talk to, you've been through alot and you have coped with most of it, and for some things, you talk to us to get it off your chest, thats what brave is. not fighting people or stealing things. my teacher probably did. he kinda freaks me out...... i mean, he makes home made fireworks for his pregnant wife, he makes stink bombs in class, he collects dead things....... what more do i need to say? First, I talked the most to Alice [xhurtfulpurplex], and later to keti, but they both don't talk to me lately. I really enjoy talking to you, and I feel like you understand me. I liked you the first time I talked to you. And I wanted to let you feel welcome. I feel welcome here. This place feels more like my home than my home does. Maybe I am brave then, but I never feel brave. I'm depressed often, but talking to you makes me get out of it. Mostly. I'm telling everything now anyway, so I can tell you this too. A few weeks ago, I was in history class. I had a question, and I raised my hand. But the wrong one, my left. My sleeve fell down, and the teacher saw my wrirst. With my scars. He looked like "OMG", and I put my arm down as quick as I could. Then I just walked out of the class, and later I said I didn't feel good. I didn't talk with the teacher about it, but we both knew it wasn't because I didn't feel good that I walked away. Your teacher sounds weird. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 First, I talked the most to Alice [xhurtfulpurplex], and later to keti, but they both don't talk to me lately. I really enjoy talking to you, and I feel like you understand me. I liked you the first time I talked to you. And I wanted to let you feel welcome. I feel welcome here. This place feels more like my home than my home does. Maybe I am brave then, but I never feel brave. I'm depressed often, but talking to you makes me get out of it. Mostly. I'm telling everything now anyway, so I can tell you this too. A few weeks ago, I was in history class. I had a question, and I raised my hand. But the wrong one, my left. My sleeve fell down, and the teacher saw my wrirst. With my scars. He looked like "OMG", and I put my arm down as quick as I could. Then I just walked out of the class, and later I said I didn't feel good. I didn't talk with the teacher about it, but we both knew it wasn't because I didn't feel good that I walked away. Your teacher sounds weird. i love talking to you. in a way i talk to you differently to the way i talk to my other friends. sometimes they ignore me and i get angry and i start shouting. i even hit some of them, it gets their attention, but they don't want to talk to me ( i wonder why:roftl:) and i get even more annoyed, i walk off on my own and listen to my ipod. but when i talk to you, i feel that you listen, and i like the fact that you can tell me things, it makes me closer to you. i never feel sad when im here. and you really make me laugh, you say the craziest things sometimes. you're the sort of person i always wished was my best friend. we really understand each other. i hate teachers. they're meant to help you, not stare at you like your a freak or something. everyone says that teachers ' understand', when actually, most of them don't. i would have said something rude and walked out. but thats me and im mental:naughty:. when people just stare at you or change the subject when they talk to you, it can really make you feel alone. my teaher is the weirest teacher i have ever met. but he makes lessons fun. crazy man. one time, he got some acid that comes out your stomach adn some food and a blender and a set of his wife's tights. he mashed up the food, added the acid, mixed it again then put it in the tights and squeezed it so all the liquid came out then he cut a hole in the end and pushed the rest out of the tights in a weird way. he said thats what happens in digestion, it smelt horrible. guess what it was. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 i love talking to you. in a way i talk to you differently to the way i talk to my other friends. sometimes they ignore me and i get angry and i start shouting.i even hit some of them, it gets their attention, but they don't want to talk to me ( i wonder why:roftl:) and i get even more annoyed, i walk off on my own and listen to my ipod. but when i talk to you, i feel that you listen, and i like the fact that you can tell me things, it makes me closer to you. i never feel sad when im here. and you really make me laugh, you say the craziest things sometimes. you're the sort of person i always wished was my best friend. we really understand each other. i hate teachers. they're meant to help you, not stare at you like your a freak or something. everyone says that teachers ' understand', when actually, most of them don't. i would have said something rude and walked out. but thats me and im mental:naughty:. when people just stare at you or change the subject when they talk to you, it can really make you feel alone. my teaher is the weirest teacher i have ever met. but he makes lessons fun. crazy man. one time, he got some acid that comes out your stomach adn some food and a blender and a set of his wife's tights. he mashed up the food, added the acid, mixed it again then put it in the tights and squeezed it so all the liquid came out then he cut a hole in the end and pushed the rest out of the tights in a weird way. he said thats what happens in digestion, it smelt horrible. guess what it was. Same here. Just that I'm mostly alone at school, and I don't have an iPod. Yep, but this teacher was kind, most of the time. And I do fancy him a bit. But now he just ignores me. When I walked away, I thought I should have said something mysterious like "Scars just don't fade, you know." Gross! That's real yucky. I really wanna meet you, can't you convince your family to go on vacation in the Netherlands? Deventer has a lot of err.. beautiful old houses, musea.. It's snowing now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tayler Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 Same here. Just that I'm mostly alone at school, and I don't have an iPod. Yep, but this teacher was kind, most of the time. And I do fancy him a bit. But now he just ignores me. When I walked away, I thought I should have said something mysterious like "Scars just don't fade, you know." Gross! That's real yucky. I really wanna meet you, can't you convince your family to go on vacation in the Netherlands? Deventer has a lot of err.. beautiful old houses, musea.. It's snowing now. awww. thats sweet. but jarsh that he ignores you. you should have said that. he is gross im really sorry Becca, but i have to leave now, i will be back as soon as i can but i have to go and meet my mum from work, i'll try and convince her that we need a holiday:thumb_yello: awww snow!!! lucky. hopefully you might be here when i get back, love you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shikutukumimika Posted February 19, 2009 Author Share Posted February 19, 2009 awww. thats sweet. but jarsh that he ignores you.you should have said that. he is gross im really sorry Becca, but i have to leave now, i will be back as soon as i can but i have to go and meet my mum from work, i'll try and convince her that we need a holiday:thumb_yello: awww snow!!! lucky. hopefully you might be here when i get back, love you Hehe, I just thought of it later.. Yaay. I hate snow. Bye.. I'm maybe going to the library, so I probably won't be here.. But I hope! Love you too, very much. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mikasbestfriend Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 HELLO KIDS!!!:biggrin2: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MiKaL00v3 Posted February 19, 2009 Share Posted February 19, 2009 HELLO KIDS!!!:biggrin2: hello how r u ? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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