Deep Conversations Thread

[Guest whalesfood]

I'm fourteen, so I still have some years to go. But I noticed time seems to pass quicker the older I get. I'm not exactly having a good time at school either. I don't have any close friends there and I'm only starting to grow some confidence and make a friend, a new girl in class.

When I try to "find out" about my own personality, I almost feel I'm...dunno, somewhat strange (sorry I really can't describe it in English:roftl:). But I do like it.

 

haha ah! yeah! but at least it's only 4! time goes by so fast. you'll be 18 before you know it. yay for new friends!! how is that developing? lol i went through the same thing. i realized how very odd i am but embrace it. the most creative people on the planet are the creative odd people. look at mika.

[MissPie]

When you are 5 years old, 1 year is 1/5 of your life. That's a huge chunk.

When you are 35 years old, 1 year is 1/35 of your life. It's just a tiny piece.

 

So, time seems to pass more quickly as you age because your perspective of time changes. An amount of time that used to be the majority of your life becomes a drop in the bucket compared to how much time you've been around.

 

My senior year of high school seemed like an eternity when it was happening. Now, it's fairly insignificant compared to all that has transpired since. It's simply a matter of perspective.

 

I know, that's actually just how I see it. I just can't seem to translate it into words, and it gets even more difficult in English as it's a foreign language to me, no matter how good I am at it:blush-anim-cl:

[MissPie]

haha ah! yeah! but at least it's only 4! time goes by so fast. you'll be 18 before you know it. yay for new friends!! how is that developing? lol i went through the same thing. i realized how very odd i am but embrace it. the most creative people on the planet are the creative odd people. look at mika.

 

Yes, totally. Much more opportunity for being creative when you have an "odd" personality.

[findingmywords]

I'm not in the deepest of moods, but I will respond as best I can.

 

Yeah I don't feel like anybody KNOWS me either. Well I don't really have close friends, but still... Even my parents don't really know me (anymore).

What I've come to wonder is also if people are honest about their feelings towards others. Some guys behave as if they hate me, but do they? I mean, don't they Just pretend because I'm not popular? A lot of what we tell probably depends on wether we think it's good for our image. I think so because I know I myself try to hit the tone for the environment I'm in.

 

I agree. I don't feel like anybody truly knows me either. I don't think we can ever be truly understood, inside out, but another person. Everyone's so different, there's no way someone can completely understand or agree with another.

 

And it really is crazy how different we act around other people. I feel like out of anyone I know, its my dad and sister who don't know me very well. My mom knows me sort of well. But its crazy that my family have known eachother for seventeen years, but my 2 best friends whom I've known for 5 years are like my family. Its like we're another part of eachother. We know eachother inside out. And I wish it was different. I'd love for my family to be best friends, to know eachother so well. But its just so hard.

Perhaps its because of the age difference.

 

What is beauty?

 

I think that beauty is not only looks, although it is part of it, but also inside. Your personality, your ability to make people think about things they normally don't think about or to make people smile, to make people cry sometimes. Beauty is something so incredibly big.. So .. complete. Beauty is everywhere. Even in the saddest and ugliest things, you can find beauty.

 

Looks. That's a part of beauty that so overrated. When you first meet someone, don't you all look at him/her, look at his/her clothes, hairdo, face, hands and all the other things? I do. I think everyone does. People just have that instinct. People also want to look the same as other people, probably to feel safe, so that they won't gain too much attention. Attention can scare people. Try picking a random someone, and keep staring at him/her. Bet he/she will get nervous? From that desire not to stand out, fashion erupted. Fashion, one of many ways to earn money from human desires. I don't like the idea to be the same as everyone else, but I also don't think I would have to guts to be different. So I do as everyone tells me to do and I mostly buy the right clothes, I get the right hairdo, I wear the right make-up and I try to stay thin enough (another sideline on this could be eating disorders: people who want to stay thin so they fit in and they are so afraid to be fat that they see themselves as fat.) But when someone is different, when someone is wearing different clothes, has got a different hairdo, is a bit heavier, does it matter to the personality, the intelligence and the way they care about other people? No.

 

Now we get to the true beauty of people: What's hidden under these layers of clothes and skin, what's inside of them. Beauty is the ability to make people happy, to make them feel sad because of your words, art or anything. Beauty is there when you give someone a comforting hug, whenever you express your love for someone, whenever you realise that you care about someone. Beauty is in everything and I won't say to anyone that he/she is ugly. Because no-one is. Even when you're ugly in looks, you surely have something beautiful in you. Beauty is so much more than words can say, so much more than anyone will be able to tell.

 

I think beauty is life. Life is beauty. I think everything is beautiful, even if it takes ages to find the beauty within it.

Beauty is in the fact that we're flawed, in the fact that we try to look 'beautiful' or handsome, try to be a bit more perfect. Our imperfection are beautiful. Its beautiful because it what proves we're human. Beauty is the balance between love and hate, bad and good. Beauty is the fact that the shadow proves the sunshine. Beauty is our bodies, the fact that we have hearts and blood flowing through our veins, the fact that we feel and love and have eyeballs. I feel that beauty is EVERYTHING. There is something beautiful in all of us. I also agree that no one is ugly. Everyone has a beautiful trait that we don't have, and that we want.

 

I don't think beauty can be defined in words either. I don't know if beauty is our connection with the being that made everything. It seems very possible. Everything is possible...

[findingmywords]

This is kind of just a question for you to think. Its not an arguable answer, kind of just rhetorical questions:

 

Think about your life right now. Think about everything you have, all the people in your life. Think about other countries and places and what they might have. What's the difference between the two?

 

Next time you go out, watch the people on the street and wonder what their story is, what is going on in their life, the pain, the joy.

Go somewhere, maybe a mall or a bench on the street or an airport. Just sit and let everything be. Just listen, wonder, observe. Don't DO anything. Don't contribute to the chaos, to the schedules. Just be a part of nature and let everything fall in place. My favorite place to do this is in nature, at the beach during sunset or in the grass.

 

Also, I was sitting in the passenger seat while my mom was driving one day, and I just watched everything go by and realized how much we have to be doing. I was thinking about every person in the cars and wondering where they were going, where they had to be. Sometimes we let our schedules overtake us. We let our money making and obligations hold us down. One of my biggest fears is this. I don't ever want to be caught in that cycle, even though I realize that I'm heading there. I feel like a lot of the time we focus too much on that. I feel like we have to connect with nature. Just to realize where you are in nature. Look at a flower petal or a blade of grass. For that moment, it becomes your whole world. Think about how it works, how these beautiful things grow out of the earth. I feel like we have to take time to return to innocence. How to be a child again and wonder and be amazed by every little thing we see. Because everything is so amazing.

On the Travel Channel there was a commercial for a program about tribesmen from some exotic country who have never been to America, and who went to America for the first time. They showed clips of these tribesmen being so amazed with every little thing. They opened a bottle of wine and the cork came out, and they acted like it was the craziest thing. They were driving through the city and looking up at the skyscrapers and were counting how many windows there were, like little kids. It made me realize more just how amazing everything is. These tribal men coming from the simplest of lives to our complicated, brilliant existence in these privileged countries. When we go through our everyday lives, all these privileges and luxuries are so normal to us. We don't stop and realize how privileged we are to have clean running water and beds and computers, et cetera.

So, to sum it up, just stop and realize the world, just let everything be and realize how incredibly lucky we are.

 

Oh! And Happy Thanksgiving yesterday!

 

 

This song kind of grasps this idea: Return to Innocence

[findingmywords]

Hello people!

 

So... another year has passed. Any resolutions? Is it a new beginning for you? What are you going to try to do differently?

[Shikutukumimika]

Hello people!

 

So... another year has passed. Any resolutions? Is it a new beginning for you? What are you going to try to do differently?

 

I want to find out who I really am. I also want to find out who I have been, and probably still am, pretending to be, and who I want to be. Then I want to accept and become me.

 

I want to be a better person. I don't know what makes someone a good person, but I think I'm not one. I want to be kinder to people I know and don't know. I want to help everyone I can. I want to be able to forgive people, and not blame them for their mistakes but accept them instead. I want to be able to accept and admit defeat and say I'm the one to blame, even when I am not. I want to be trustworthy.

 

I want to find out what I want in life. I can't picture myself 10, or 20, or 30 years from now. I have no idea what I would be doing. I don't have goal in life, I don't know what I want to do after I finish school.. I want to know what I want, I want to be sure of my life.

 

And then there's another one, but I will keep that one to myself.

 

And then there's the less serious things, which I'll probably keep up until February..

 

-I want to lose weight, or at least eat less candy.

-I want to clean my room more often. ()

-I want to do all my school work, which results in more school less MFC/computer.

-I want to get higher marks at school

-I want to learn a language I don't know yet.