Laurel Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 poor you (just ignored me, i'm not here) Not poor me ... I'll get through it ... I shall just ... cry ... alot ... I don't like ... not being in control of things ... if that makes sense Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
giggels Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 pissed off with self,confused,wurryed,slightly scared Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Angel Posted May 23, 2010 Author Share Posted May 23, 2010 Yup. Can't shake it, can't stop it. Yikes! Are you alright? yeah of course i am... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
giggels Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 How am I feeling right now ... to be honest ... flipping terrified ... I go to say goodbye to my Mum tomorrow ... I've seen her already ... but it was only for about 2 mins as I couldn't stay in there ... I need to stay longer this time ... for closure ... for piece of mind ... for lots of reasons ... going with both my brothers .... David hasn't seen her yet ... so I'm worried about him ... whether he'll hold it together or not ... and then Tuesday is the funeral ... I don't really ... know .... how I'll be on Tuesday ... I've written her a poem ... and really hope I can hold it together and actually read it ... I don't want anyone else to have to step up and do it themselves ... It's personal ... I wrote it .... let alone ... sitting through the songs I've chosen ... It's probably gonna be the worst two days of my life ... ever ... and .... I still don't really know how I feel right now ohhhsorry to hear hun puts my problem to shame Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Laurel Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 ohhhsorry to hear hun puts my problem to shame People's problems are huge to them when they're going through them ... At least I don't think anything could ever be as worse as what I'm going through now ... so It's all upwards hopefully from now onwards ... or Wednesday onwards at least Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
giggels Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 People's problems are huge to them when they're going through them ... At least I don't think anything could ever be as worse as what I'm going through now ... so It's all upwards hopefully from now onwards ... or Wednesday onwards at least why wednesday hun if you dont mind me asking Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Laurel Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 why wednesday hun if you dont mind me asking Cos I go back to work on Wednesday ... after the funerals done ... it's kind of time to try and get back to normal ... don't know how well I'll do yet This is all unknown to me - I'm just hoping I don't have a complete breakdown on Tuesday and not be able to go ... I'm lucky that where I work ... is where my Mum worked too ... so they've all been as shocked as I've been ... and have told me to take all the time I need ... but ... I need to get back into a routine ... I'm just hoping I'll be able too Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
giggels Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 Cos I go back to work on Wednesday ... after the funerals done ... it's kind of time to try and get back to normal ... don't know how well I'll do yet This is all unknown to me - I'm just hoping I don't have a complete breakdown on Tuesday and not be able to go ... I'm lucky that where I work ... is where my Mum worked too ... so they've all been as shocked as I've been ... and have told me to take all the time I need ... but ... I need to get back into a routine ... I'm just hoping I'll be able too ohhh i dont know what to sat hun (i bet you sick of people saying sorry) i kind of know what your going thrugh (i lost my mum at 12)i found it weard at first the only thing i can say is what ever mood your in dont bottel it up (it will only lead to worser things)let it all out and if you need someone to b***h with or at or even someone to tallk rubish im here for you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Laurel Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 ohhh i dont know what to sat hun (i bet you sick of people saying sorry) i kind of know what your going thrugh (i lost my mum at 12)i found it weard at first the only thing i can say is what ever mood your in dont bottel it up (it will only lead to worser things)let it all out and if you need someone to b***h with or at or even someone to tallk rubish im here for you Thank you hun ... it means alot ... I'll be ok ... I've handled this better than I ever thought I would ... she was my best friend ... she always will be Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hippieibbie Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 Not poor me ... I'll get through it ... I shall just ... cry ... alot ... I don't like ... not being in control of things ... if that makes sense it makes sense, i feel sorry for you... You've to be strong? or something like that:teehee: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
giggels Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 Thank you hun ... it means alot ... I'll be ok ... I've handled this better than I ever thought I would ... she was my best friend ... she always will be and thats the thing shell always be with you hun my mum is my commonsence voice and befor i go to bed i always tell her what i did that day and who i flirted with its strange the things that bring back memorys Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hippieibbie Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 I feel like trash.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Angel Posted May 23, 2010 Author Share Posted May 23, 2010 ignored? still headache and tired... but way too early to go to bed! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hippieibbie Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 ignored? still headache and tired... but way too early to go to bed! you say everyday, you will go to bed early... but you never do it:aah: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Angel Posted May 23, 2010 Author Share Posted May 23, 2010 you say everyday, you will go to bed early... but you never do it:aah: Im a night person. between 2 & 4 am is normal for me early is around midnight... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
purplegrape Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 Suddenly very sleepy *yawn* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hippieibbie Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 i'm feeling bad, very bad.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Angel Posted May 23, 2010 Author Share Posted May 23, 2010 bored.... miss some fun! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bitter.icarus Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 yeah of course i am... Good. I'm sort of obsessing over lip balms right now. Strawberry, Monkey Farts, Bacon! I have to have them! Talking to my friend. I feel better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Angel Posted May 23, 2010 Author Share Posted May 23, 2010 Good. I'm sort of obsessing over lip balms right now. Strawberry, Monkey Farts, Bacon! I have to have them! Talking to my friend. I feel better. (was ment sarcastic) in another way... no im not alright lip balm w. bacon? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bitter.icarus Posted May 23, 2010 Share Posted May 23, 2010 (was ment sarcastic) in another way... no im not alright lip balm w. bacon? Oh, oops! That's the trouble with text. Sorry! Uhm. Yup. Apparently, it tastes/smells like it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dark Angel Posted May 23, 2010 Author Share Posted May 23, 2010 Oh, oops! That's the trouble with text. Sorry! Uhm. Yup. Apparently, it tastes/smells like it. Dont think we can get that here I have one with strawberry and i love it... but got it in London Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bitter.icarus Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 Dont think we can get that here I have one with strawberry and i love it... but got it in London I love strawberries. Especially with sugar. I feel the skin of the popcorn kernels I just ingested scraping at the back of my throat. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
toy_girl_mika96 Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 B O R E D. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mika Cherry Posted May 24, 2010 Share Posted May 24, 2010 B O R E D. same...and tired i woke up too early and slept too late! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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