I know this feeling...
find out what you like to do and what you're good at!
Don't try to be the best of all, but (try to) be the best for yourself!
I by myself learned for years hard things, ancient languages, etc...and i was always bored. Now i can go to university, but nothing there is interesting for me...so I decided to do another kind of eduction, a lower one. But one I'm good at and that makes me happy.
Sometimes is one step back, one step closer:thumb_yello: