Well.. I know this feeling.. As I said.. I can't describe it.. It's impossible to give reasons to that.. Well.. Why I cry, when I see him.. His pictures.. When I see him smiling.. When I hear his voice.. Gah.. It's just.. I'm so crazy.. Maybe this is 'cause he's so far from me.. And you.. And others.. And on the other hand, we can't imagine our lives without him.. I don't know how much this is true, but this is only my opinion.