nico_collard

I know. I'm trying to get over it but everytime I get to grips with reality another blow hits me, it's practically never ending...hopefully this will be the end of it...

I know he didn't stop dating me simply because of sex....in his past relationship with a long term gf, he never enjoyed it because it was boring, routine and dull...

we did things, but not sex, and he enjoyed it. I don't know if that scared him or anything...maybe the things we did were too soon but I tried to hold myself back, but when I did that, he ended up being the one who made the moves...

We even agreed that he'd be my first...you know? He even wanted to marry me, he said. He said he's physically attracted to me and wanted me for the right reasons which I completely understand....but now he's with that girl he never fancied...

It's just so bizarre. I try to make the effort to keep things civil but there's just no response. And that's all I want...honesty, because he never gave it to me from the start of our relationship.

I just wish things were different...

Thanks darling.

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