It's totally fine, I understood it And I also agree with your opinion. When you're sitting alone and the weather is not goo you become more reflective.
I think autumn and winter is about being more INTROVERT, and so It happened also with me... If you hate yourself because it HURTS... that's a HUGE FAKE.
Not popular to say: It hurts. But it hurts the same.. and it will shout in you until you don't care, and don't let sou feel... and let it go..