I'm very sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time at the moment... but I'm pretty sure it'll all get better and better okay at the end. if you need someone to talk to we're here!
The last year wasn't easy for my me as well... I also had to think about life and how to go on as I didn't pass my finals at university. So I had a hard time for a few weeks, but then I had to decide what to do. So applied for a job at a lawyer and they wanted me.
I'm working there now and I made up the decision to try my exam again when I'm a legal secretary.
So you should never give up and just take the chances life will give to you. It'll all be okay!