Yeah I feel the same way !
I want to be involved in something huge, I want to be a fan of somebody who is alive, whom I can see in gigs........... I want to wait for his albums impatiently... And when I get older (mika will then be considerated as a part of the musical anthology) I want to say to my grand children : yeah, at your age Mika was beginning to be huge... and I already loved him
It's quite silly