I'm sorry to hear this. I certainly agree that you might want to seek professional help because what we've got to offer might not be enough. I'd also like to add that everything works out in the end, and that some things in life are not meant to be taken too seriously. Just think that in a few years back you'll be looking back at your problems and wondering why you made such a big deal. Just try to take things lightly. And give yourself a chance, don't be too hard on yourself. Whatever it is that's bothering you I'm sure it'll be okay. Everyone gets what they deserve in the end.
I hope things work out for you