i dont know if i would be comfortable with expressing any possibility of us being in a relationship either mutual or onesided from her or me... i guess im just scared and afraid that I'm jumping the gun. Sometimes i realize how much i think about her and how much i know she still thinks about her ex and I don't feel as though I have a chance against her feelings for her at all.
We've shared countless intimate moments as friends. We confide in each other... sometimes it feels as though we've been living parallel lives and we were bound to meet at some point.
recently, I've been reevaluating our friendship and over analyzing everything. From songs she decides to send me to the time it takes her to respond to my text messages...
I'm a bit obsessive... and i think it's hard for her to not know that i dont like her (if that makes sense) and most people who know about what's going on think that we share mutual feelings for each other.. but im not sure... she is just an affectionate friend, and i reciprocate. we often tell each other that we love each other and we express our feelings about wanting to make the other happy and solve each other's problems.
I don't know. i just know that she is still so in love with her ex and she treats her like crap, and i just want to let her know everything will be okay and she deserves so much better than what she gets. she told me that we would be okay, and i can only make her the same promise in return. =/
sorry that was so long...