I see what you mean, purplegrape. My obsession with Mika has always been kind of healthy, (comparing to some other obsessions that I've been through:biggrin2: ) but I now the feeling when you're afraid that you'll lose those powerful positive feelings that you have. At the beginning Mika and mfc gave me so much inspiration, I had so big plans for the future! But now, after some time has passed, I can visit mfc very rarely, and I think I've become more 'normal'(still I think it's more like due to lack of Mikaish communication). I don't know if it's good or bad, but when I am really excited about something or somebody, I just feel that my body almost can't handle all the strength that is inside me, I am completely restless and I have so many ideas and plans for future, and I'm also very vulnerable. But when it passes, I just become normal, I'm neither very happy nor unhappy, I don't miss anything don't need anything and sometimes I'm even glad that I'm not so vulnerable anymore. But when I'm in this crazy state I think that I would never want to became so numb and indifferent anymore. Which is better, I don't know. I guess there are just different phases, we can't be always passionate or always calm. And I actually think, as bonjourmika said, that the feeling might really come back
P.S. I really miss mfc sometimes. I really do.