I know exactly what you mean about teenage crushes and fantasies. I'm 15, and I have a massive crush on Mika, though I must admit I know nothing about him. He is an entertainer, and for all we know, he may be putting on a mask every time he's in public which makes him seem to be the bubbly, funny, cute, adorable, sweet, kind, caring and hilarious person that he always is. But for all we know...he might be a completely different person. I know this isn't likely, but his true identity and personality may make us all have second thoughts about him. You never know. I'm not saying you shouldn't hope and dream...because I sure do. So mika, I love you, I know you believe that you love Mika, and there's absolutely no wrong in that, seeing that I love him too, but don't forget, everyone who is "in love" with Mika isn't in love with the real Mika..we're in love with the entertainer. Whether we like it or not, that's a fact.
You're young, please don't put your life on hold for someone that you don't really know. Don't reserve yourself for him. Maybe one day, you'll find a guy who's just as nice, sweet, loving and caring like Mika..maybe even more. You just never know. Take it from me..I'm 15..and I know what you're going through.
Live your life to the fullest.