I'm very much the same. If I lived anywhere near her I'd have to go round and check, she'd probably be freaked out by my turning up on her doorstep tho.
Pink, if you see this or not, you are in my thoughts honey, you have the strength to get thro anything. There are people here that barely know you, like me but you've already made us all happier just by being part of this community. I really hope to speak to you again soon.